"you know how the ocean has all that water?"
-yeah.
"well, I miss you more than that."
-really?
"yeah. and you know how the sun is really hot? I miss you more than that. "
-you're lyin'!
"no, I'm a person!"

i love this man.
<3

Dana, I'm bored.
post an entry.

it's hard to be in love and have nothing to show for it.

I just spent an entire day and a half naked.
Awesome.

"why is it that only in the beginings of a relationship are you aware of the heat coming from inside a person, of the number of inches you would have to move from your shoulders to brush as if it were an accident?"

"do you think of me, when you least expect it-when you're unwrapping a garden hose or tilting your face to the shower or making love to someone else? and can you leave it at that, or do you find yourself compulsively sifting through the memories?

if i had been the one to leave, would you have written your heart out to me?"

it's hard for me to understand how one day i can have an uncle who lives at my house, walking around, talking too loud, bringing me chocolate cake, and just living...
and the next, he's just a box of ashes.
how can my uncle be ashes...

i am so hook-line-and-sinker in lo...
wait, wait, wait.
i don't use that word unless i'm sure i mean it.
but infatuation sure does feel the same.

you smell good, and clean, and manly.
i don't ever want to forget the way you smell.
i don't ever want to forget the way you smile.

i have sixteen pages of email in my inbox because i hate deleting things that make me happy.
my first message is from august 13th, 2002 and it's from dana.

i miss being young(er) and all my friends and only worrying about who to hang out with and how to make that happen. and boys. there was always boys.

now i don't do anything.
unless you count

i called my dad today. he started giving me a lecture about how i never leave messages when i call. it went a little something like this:

dad: "when i was a kid i really liked the show rin tin tin. he was a dog who worked with the police..."

me: 'yeah dad, i know who rin tin tin is.'

dad: "well, anyway, i got a beagle and i named him after ( Read more... )