So here I am back where I once started. It seems like people forget you after a while, they forget all the things you did for them at one point, they forget how you were always was there for them in there time of need. Sometimes I think whats the point.. I pour my heart out to someone and in the end I'm just a distant memory. This time of the ( Read more... )

The Lesley days are over, seems like we are fading away. we hardly talk everyday like we use to anymore. I guess we both got bored of each other. She is out trying to work on her relationship, while I am trying to start a meaningful relationship. In a way we just put time off to pursue our happiness, but when we do does that mean it is completely ( Read more... )

Once again I am back where I started, its like someone hit the reset button and now I am alone. I decided to not be with Lesley anymore because my feelings for her were growing strong, I mean what does she expect after being her so long. I just cant bare the fact that she chooses to go back to her ex and just seeing that brings me pain. so I ( Read more... )

So far its been over a year and 3 months so far with her, even though we never dated or things changed in the way we felt about each other, I still care for her. Our friendship has been put through thick and thin. Even though we dont love each other that way, I cant help but care for her because she has put up with a lot of my stuff and so have I. ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by my friends I do love them all no matter what, But its stressful sometimes when your the person they always rely on for many things. I am always the go to guy or the leader.. even when I am dealing with my own problems I help them out, but sometimes I just want some solitude and get to enjoy the silence or have an ( Read more... )

For some reason I miss Angie, despite everything that happened in the past, I still missed that smile of hers and everything about her. I just hope everything is ok with her.

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I realized I had abandoned my livejournal in quite a while. Its just a lot has happened over that time. Our relationship with Lesley has gotten to be over a year long, even though she isn't my actual girlfriend. I still feel like it sometimes because of the way we act. Mostly its been us texting each other every day and going out to dinner, ( Read more... )

Its been a week since I last spoke to Lesley. I felt like I needed to get away from her and all the jealousy and mixed emotions that were getting to me. In a way it has help me feel more stress free.. I been spending more time with old friends. The other night we hit up this bar everyone kept mentioning to me about "Bougiesville Old Tavern, for ( Read more... )

It took me almost a year, but finally I feel a sense of alleviation. No longer feeling that burden of my confidence diminished. Through close friends that have always been there for me.. though no longer feeling awkward talking to my ex.. it has all changed. I finally feel like my old self again.. the person who I was once romantic, friendly, ( Read more... )

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