I am eating though I don't need to. I'm slacking on my homework. I'm withdrawing into myself...

Self sabotage.

Do I really want to be a lazy mass that doesn't live life?

The answer is no.

So I need to stop all this self sabotage, now.

There are few occasions where I drink and have a good time and feel good both the night of drinking and the next morning. Last night I wasn't supposed to drink that much but several of my friends came out and kept buying me drinks. I spent ZERO dollars, they spent 60 each... or more ( Read more... )

This is what I am. A stupid day dreamer. I spend most of my time in my mind. Things are alot nicer there. I'm someone else, in another world, land, fantasy... I feel more connected with these daydreams sometimes than I do real live people. These day dreams don't let me down, for I control them... However ( Read more... )

I am screaming in my head right now. Scream after scream after scream ( Read more... )

So here's the story. I took biochemistry and organic chemistry at the same time last fall. Stupid idea of a dyslexic - but I didn't really think about that when I was signing up for them nor while I was taking them. I got Ds in both. GPA killer? Heck yeah ( Read more... )

I got frustrated today. I was frustrated with my brother, my father, and my mother. My father now works at my church. I gave him permission to do so ( Read more... )

Insecurity was making me feel anxious earlier today. I saw my biochem final percentage - 72%. Is that a C? Is that a B? Is that a C-!? I dunno ( Read more... )

I ate two meals at lunch ( Read more... )

I haven't gotten to see him since... last week. Why aren't you a closer friend!? Why does it seem you are on and off in your friendship ( Read more... )

Today I have a Statistics Final... Everyone else finds Stat to be easy, they are not having problems with it. It's probably because I slacked on the homework, choosing other classes over it... or maybe it's because I sat in the back of the class... But I am not very good at stat and my grade is hurting ( Read more... )