its amazing how someone can change overnight.

im confused, hurt, and extremely emotional.

im starting to disgust myself. i shouldnt rely on someone to make me happy. but i do, and im miserable.

..and if i listen to anymore jewel...or the cranberries, im going to throw up again.

ugh. help me.

i am so fucking confused, and i am vomiting as a result.

im stressed. the end.

as of tomorrow, i will be temporarily driving a DODGE STRATUS.

my cabrio gets destroyed, and the rental company gives me a dodge stratus. SWEET.

i just saw a news report about mendocino breast cancer activists threatening to bare their breasts to the public.

I LOVE MENDOCINO.
i belong there....

Take a drug to set you free
Strange fruit from a forbidden tree
You've got to come down soon
More than a drug is what I need
Need a change of scenery
Need a new life

i need to stop listening to music.

san francisco and boys night out tomorrow...too bad one of their members is a fucking PIG.

anyways. i just got off the phone with kristina...i miss her. ( ( Read more... )

I NEED SOME REASSURANCE.

im impatient.

bauhaus tonight.

id rather be going somewhere else.

i need to stop listening to smashing pumpkins.

i need to talk about things.

AH.

aside from panicing over my current financial situation, i am just coming to realize that things are turning around.

everyday this last week i have found something different to do that makes ME happy for once. its been a while.

i think i spend all of my time worrying about the condition of those around me, that i sometimes lose track of how im ( Read more... )

                                                           
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