ya so today i was invited to my friend chelsea's house today for a swim party.....but that was not where i really wanted to be....So ya school is going to be over with...and joshs moving......im trying to not get depressed but i know its affecting me...i knew this was going to happen i just tried to forget about it. I can tell that im getting ( Read more... )

...I had so much fun on monday. At like 930 i went to joshs new house and stayed till 9 at night. I wish i could just stay there forever.His family is so amazing.I love them. I wish my mom was more like joshs mom. Teddyanne is such a sweetheart and she acts so young.She really looks like she is 30. I see where josh gets his looks from.I also got to ( Read more... )

.......... things this week are packed...today im doing nothin,but working on hw i have a least 3 hours of hw, then tommarow i am taking a test in biology after that im getting my hair cut and after that im working on a big project in history..with this girl whos weird but pretty nice to....wednesday we have a carnival at napa high till like 124o ( Read more... )

ya these last couple of days i have felt as if something is eating me up from the inside its weird. im stressed out but im not exactly sure why.Ya so i dont feel very good right now i think im going to lie down. I really wish josh were here.. i need some soothing

man prom was so much fun........i actually got josh to dance two songs with me...lol..i just had to drag him on the dance floor...me and jessica danced alot.im really sad though because i probally wont see josh until thursday...thats really starting to get me down...i just feel like running over his house...i really want some alone time with him... ( Read more... )

so yesterday i went to church without josh.......i also had a long talk with my counseler anne, who i consider kinda like a mom.me and ann talked alot and i really needed someone to talk to cause im under alot of stress. ya so this is the longest me and josh have ever gone without spending time together....I am kinda pissed about that.i really ( Read more... )

so today im leaving at ll to got eat at piccolinos in napa and from there we are going to sanjose,and then we are having dinner over in san jose...i wont get to go to church or hand out with my friends today....i always love sundays and now im sad..because i wont get to have any fun ....not to mention i dont get to see josh till thursday and thats ( Read more... )

.....yesterday was so much fun. I hung out with josh from like 8 till like 11. I feel so happy whenever im around him. Its like he has a light that effects everybody around him..he has a good soul. Sometimes in some things i could more like him...He has so much self control and i lack so much lol..i just love him with all my heart.so in other news ( Read more... )

somethings wrong with me but i have no clue what...its weird. Not to mention im keeping alot of things curled up inside..so no one knows how i really feel...i just need some comforting...i have no clue when i will get it....the only people could talk to would be josh or jessica cause they both understand....i really need to pray...i think im going ( Read more... )

im never a really emotional person and i never would normally be an emotional person. But after i found out josh was moving i just got really emotional...the truth is im going carzy inside all these feelings worries...ideas...pain..Right now i think that satin is trying to make me depressed and lowly an dit sworking im fighting back...but today i ( Read more... )