I guess things are stable. I got demoted to a damn PFC. If I'm not a CPL by SGT's board, I'll scream. Damn the JROTC program.

Anyways. Life is crap but I guess I can't complain. I just wish things would go back to normal and I wish it didn't feel so different.

I got myself in some trouble. I gotta go to court now. And I can't talk to my own boyfriend for a month. I can't go with him to Military Ball either. God I hate my life.

He was with his friends and some of his family at the movies last night. It was good to converse with them for about half an hour. As Sarah and I were walking to the movie, I cried. God I hate this.

I saw him tonight.

She was there.

The bear he gave me smells like his house.

I cried for the first time in a while.

But I guess things turn out for the best in the end.

So, nothing much to update about.

This world is starting to move faster.

The days are going by so fast.

Why does it feel like life is passing by me so quickly?

I don't think I'm gonna update anymore.

I don't think anyone reads this thing.

Life doesn't feel right...

So I haven't updated, I swear I've been meaning to but I just forget to. Alas, not a lot has really happened in my pathetic life. Drill Comp, we didn't win shit, but we weren't expected to. We have another Comp in early December. So that means we have maybe two practices left and I have yet to learn colors reverse in Lightweight Color Guard. Gah. ( Read more... )

I saw him again today.

But it wasn't the same.

I didn't miss him anymore.

And he doesn't care like he used to anymore.

God, why does this happen to me?