im debating whether or not to still come home this weekend. I made tons of arrangements so that i could go, it would seem like such a waste of time if i didnt. I do miss my friends very much, we will see what happens, call me you back home people if you want to hang out if i come ( Read more... )

so life is swell ( Read more... )

1.2.3.4....let me count the number of tears that are rolling down my cheeks. He doesnt want me anymore. He said hes happier with himself when hes not with me and that we will never be able to make each other happy. He made me happy, although I complained. He made me more happy than I have ever been with anybody. I suppose I have a funny way of ( Read more... )

He always tells me he will do something then he does the exact opposite. That isnt love. This is just too painful for me. Im trying so hard to be his friend but he is not making it any easier on me. I really dont want to move on, I just want to wait for him but what purpose does waiting serve when there doesnt seem to be any hope. I need his ( Read more... )

Boys are weird. Very weird. He asked me to come over and cuddle. Of course i said no cuz i reserve that only for bfs, then he said i should be his gf. Blah on boys ( Read more... )

Ive decided that I should probably keep my mouth shut about my feelings for now on when I talk to him. He seldom shares his so if he wants to know something, he will have to ask. The funny thing about feelings is that if you pretend they are not there, they begin to fade and what was once pretend becomes reality. Ive always been good at make- ( Read more... )

It is time to start anew. Time to form the habit of getting rid of unhealthy habits. During my long drive from OC to berkeley, I had several realizations as I prayed. I am not that great, I am riddled with spiritual ailments. I have become something I have never wanted to be. I need help ( Read more... )

Ecclesiastes 7:8 ( Read more... )

"wont you be, oh wont you be, wont you be my neighbor...ding ding here comes charlie the trolley!" aww no more rides to the land of make believe with king friday and prince tuesday, oh what a happy place that was ( Read more... )

i have been inducted into the broken hearted club. bravo bravo. At least i get to be in this lovely affiliation with my dearest cameron. Yay! Its good to have a friend that Ive been through so much with and actually stayed friends with. How many times did we break up? I have no idea, way too many but we managed to make it through all the crap and ( Read more... )