sing to me that i'm okay. caress my face the way you do.
look at me in the way that says everything and makes emotion run to my eyes and gather.

then hold me close and tight, and tell me i'm going to be okay. this is just a phase, this is just a feeling. this isn't the end of anything, except maybe cold hearted heartbreak.

alone in confusion, lost in my own heart, feelings incomprehensible, emotions unreachable. so this is what it must be like to begin to die inside.

it's all burning inside, and churning my acids. it's painful to look into your eyes and hardly be able to see that peircing pain through all those tears. watching you lay on the pavement next to me ( Read more... )

now here we are. a reason to cry and scream through white screen words again. i've found i'm not the only one who feels more and writes more when i'm down, but new friend is the same. i think we aren't the only ones. nonetheless, reasons will be reasons. i wish i had someone with me right here to cry on. i wish i wasn't alone in this house with the ( Read more... )

even though it's only been a couple days, it feels like i haven't written in a while. i feel forced to write something. so much has happened that i don't want to let out. maybe because i feel like knocking on wood wouldn't save life's better aspects if i let out the secrets, maybe because i don't want people to know things. whatever the reason, i' ( Read more... )

it was nice, having him alone again. even though we weren't quite alone, i can deal. i haven't realized how much he's had on his plate lately, what with her and i being so distant and depressed. i try not to be, i really honestly try, but it's so hard on me. it seemed like every time i felt comfortable, even for a second, the first words from his ( Read more... )

can someone please just get the job done? i've got enough on my mind and mouth to whiplash anyone. i don't know what to do with anything. i can't exactly call in and quit my job at great america, however i can't be late to work three days in a row either. thanks to my ray of sunshine (code for PEICE OF SHIT WHORE) mom though, i'm going to be. what ( Read more... )

I HATE MY FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL! Thanks to the morons that attend evergreen, i can no longer post pictures on here. if they were of me, it wouldn't matter. however, most of my pictures have my friends in them. WHY SHOULD THIS BE A PROBLEM, you ask? because there's a group of immature little pre-puberty insecure pricks running around making a xanga ( Read more... )

my babe, my love, all grown up. we're all so old now, as opposed to when we were innocent little kids without any real worries. another year and i'm opened into the real world. skott is already opened into the real world. 18 and graduated. i'm so proud of you babe, SO proud of you. i really truly am. you made it through four years of treacherous ( Read more... )

did you know that i look out to the moon every night, and somehow always seem to find your face in it? and did you know that before i fall asleep each night, when my head first sinks into that pillow good, that you're the last thing that runs and sits in my mind? and did you know that when i curl into a ball under my soft warm blanket, i lay my ( Read more... )

well, after a slight mental breakdown last night, my mind is cleared, my finals are covered, and life is good again. work has me a little anxious and stressed, but it's going to be alright. just going to float on alright. i've happily made ammends with old friends, so i'm on good terms with all but one person, that i'd rather not be talking to ( Read more... )