it was a good night. i'm happy i got such a break. i smiled again, it was coo. i didn't even have it in the back of my mind. but now, in the middle of night-silence, i can see her again. damn, she was so fucking pretty, why am i even kidding myself man? i'll never have him back. sure i'll have him, sure he'll be mine, but in time he'll fall for her ( Read more... )

and i'm sitting here. and i'm walking my dog. and i'm thinking and crying, and i don't know why, and that makes me cry more. and i'm asking out loud for an answer, and i'm waiting for it.

and it never comes. and so i sit in the dirt [sand] and i think and my mind fogs up. and it clears again. and i walk home. and i look around hiding the tears, ( Read more... )

i just got caught on my cell. yay. oops. amy fucked up. gah i hate being confined, fuckers, it's not going to make me do my work any more than anything else. i just made dinner too. it's one thing to keep me from going out or something but taking everything? would they do that to my sister? no. god damn shit bitch whore ass mofo.

and then all this ( Read more... )

things are so confusing. i feel complete, but it doesn't feel complete. i know that doesn't make sense now, but one day it will. but i'm happy. i truly am, and that's enough to push me on. maybe it's the mom in the way that's holding me back.

but still the question stands...
what exactly are we?

hmmm. anyways.

PROM WAS FANTASTIC!!!


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what an interesting.. happening. maybe he's just upset. maybe nothing. i just wish he could talk to me, tell me whats wrong. he's acting the way he did that night. it's scaring me. what if it is the same thing? but he still held me and kissed me. i couldn't tell if he meant it or not. i was just as confused as he seemed to be.

what if he's changing ( Read more... )

i love being a part of this life even when i'm under severe restriction. you'll find ways to sneak me out and save my ass from destruction. the greatest times consist of lying on you on me on a cool couch, with great friends in the background reading up on anorexia and hollywood drama. sneaking off to your room for a little unfinished business, ( Read more... )

what a perfect ending to a perfect teenage phase. lonliness. as if i haven't endured enough through the past months. i can see she understands underneath. i can see behind her damned eyes that she wants to have some mercy, but neil will always win. gutfull bastard.

i could be making a big deal of nothing. but it just pushes my shoulders more to know ( Read more... )

Which condom would you use?....

Nike Condoms: Just do it.

Toyota Condoms: Oh what a feeling.

Diet Pepsi Condoms: You got the right one, baby.

Pringles Condoms: Once you pop, you can`t stop.

Flinstones Vitamins Condom Pack: Ten million strong and growing.

Ford Condoms: The best never rest.

Chevy Condoms: Like a Rock.
New York Lotto Condoms: Cause hey ( Read more... )

it's the same old story. girl follows heartbreak, loses all friends along the way, and at one point surely will be alone, except in this movie no one steps in to bring everything back. what's done is done. the saddest part is, i don't care. some things i don't care that i've lost, others i do. what's clawing at me and keeping me awake is the ( Read more... )

driving on the way to nowhere, talking about things that never mattered, staring off into the sun and letting my eyes blind up. glancing to the backseat where i smile to you words only your eyes can hear, and which your heart beats in tune to. the railroad on my right tips my face its way and screams our names, throwing pictures that were soon to ( Read more... )