i don't know what i'm supposed to feel

in the end, i only liked him a lot but she loves him
why would i get in the way of that

shit changes too fast for me to handle

wow i do not remember posting that..

IM NEVE RDRUNK TXTING AGAING

i think..
i will never, ever strive for a relationship, ever again.

each time i learn more and more.

i have forgotten just how miserable and consuming this feels.
i have the sudden urge just to snort a line of coke and pass out.

i've never felt a heartache like this before
i'm so fucking confused.

why have i been so unchill lately. i'm usually sooooo chill nothing ever pisses me off
i feel so irritable

i think she still upsets me.

both of them.

even though right now, my life without either of them has been fantastic.