Dear Love,

It's been a long time since I've needed to do this, but I feel like I should do it now because I can't think of anything else that might fix this. It's 3 in the morning and all I've been thinking about for the past 32 hours has been you and what I could have possibly done to make you feel and act this way.

I don't know what I did. I ( Read more... )

I wish this was the first day all over again.

Now that we're coming up on 1 year and some odd months, I think things have changed; and they are supposed to in a healthy growing relationship. I like falling in love with you, but I don't like being in love with you... if you can understant that at all. Because after almost 2 years you're too ( Read more... )

"Hey there love, let's get to catching up.
Cause I been thinking those thoughts
That must have slipped my mind
That time that I left you there that night."
I replied, "Let me remind you of the guy
You failed to mention all along.
Cause your actions have consequences and these are them."

I'll be your friend in hell, until the I despise you.
And I ( Read more... )

I had the craziest dreams last night...

I dont really want to talk about them, I just thought I would let you know.

There are things you learn when you are alone. I've learned to appreciate little things that people go out of their way to do for you. Every Wednesday I used to watch Lost with my mom. It was our favorite show. We would make dinner ( Read more... )

After you called last night I couldn't sleep..... I kept tossing and turning and getting that sick to my stomach feeling I get when I know something bad is going to happen. I'm suprised I held it together enough to not cry myself to sleep, but somehow I did. And somehow I crawled out of bed this morning and went on with my day as if everything was ( Read more... )

I've been at this for days, trying to find the way I really feel... and I've written it down on pages and pages... Letters, notes, journals, cartoons on the refrigerator, but nothing quite describes it. It's frustrating that whenever I try to describe you, or the way I feel about you or us I draw a complete blank. And it's frustrating that the ( Read more... )

So,.... here's the thing. Its 7:40 in the morning and i am drunk as shit. And I have to work at 8:45. AHHHHHH. Today is going to be hell. I'm glad I have tomorrow off.

Ok, so I am a nerd and I just got done watching Independence Day.

And I don't know how many of you have seen Independence Day since it came out in 1999.... but since I haven't... I just have to share my thoughts. At the very end, after they figure out how to destroy the ships, they show clips from different countrys. Why is it that the first clip ( Read more... )

So I went last night to that party. Met some new friends, because I didn't know anyone. Sweet girls. But I didn't get home until freaking 1:30 in the morning. And then I got up at 7. I have an interview in an hour and I am really glad that I know how to fake shit like this because I feel like my insides need to be ripped out ( Read more... )

So I am supposed to go to a frat party tonight.

Boys + girls + alcohol + random sex = frat party.

Frat party + alison = bad...... specially because I will only know 1 person there.... no good. So I don't think I am going to go. Besides that, I have an interview Friday morning... and I just don't want to fuck that up, you know?

Gilbert called me ( Read more... )