All I want right now is for Gilbert to call me. Because I miss him. And I want him to be home. I want to hear his voice. Damn it.... I know he won't call me for another 2 days, but I want him to call me now.

I went out with some co-workers tonight. They were fucking funny as all hell. I almost died laughing.

Happy post for Kyle. I <3 you :)

It's been 5 months since the last time I touched you. 5 months..... I'm going crazy.

They say that sex releases enzymes in your brain that makes you happy... like antidepressants. Maybe that's why I've been so depressed lately. Because I'm a sex addict that quit cold turkey with no opportunity to relapse because I love you too much to hurt you ( Read more... )

It's sad when you realize love is just another word.
I'm glad that when I tell you I love you I mean it. From the bottom of my soul I can feel the words as I say them transfer from me to you, even over the phone.
I dont ever want to reach a point where I am telling  you I love you in an empty tone, out of reflex for doing it for so long.

He's ( Read more... )

I had a few questions on my mind, so I thought I would share.

1) What in the hell am I doing up at 8:30 on a Saturday?
2)....

Wait... I guess I only had one question.. But it really needs an answer. I really need to get my apartment organized before Gilbert comes home or he is ganna freak out. LOL. I just need like a filing cabinet or something to ( Read more... )

Last night I stared blankly at my T.V. until Midnight.
Because after midnight, I knew you wouldn't call.
So I gave into the fact that I had nothing to stay awake for...
Turned off the T.V. and put my phone on the nightstand
And tried to imagine what it will feel like
When I no longer need to wait for your call everynight.

P.S. I <3 Kyle Rust. Don't ( Read more... )

How is it possible that I am still sick.... it's been over a month.

Now, most logical people would have gone to the doctor at this point. There are a few problems with me going to the doctor....
1) I don't have a doctor here
2) I don't know if my mom's insurance still covers me
3) I work all day everyday... essentially working the hours that I could ( Read more... )

On Friday my dad came down to visit me and we went to dinner. And then on Saturday we went down to Senior Frogg's and he made me take tequila shots. And yes, he did MAKE me. Then on Sunday we went horse back riding. My ass is sore. Damn.,...

I sit in this apartment and I feel soo... exhasperated. I'm am getting to this point now where I'm worried ( Read more... )

When I woke up this morning at 4 am I was hoping it was due to my phone ringing because you were calling. I was sadly mistaken. The reason my bed was shaking at 4 am (which is what woke me up) was because we were having an earthquake. HOLY FREAKING COW...... I forgot that California had those.

I'm tired but Batman is on... and I freaking love ( Read more... )

The other day I was in Urban Outfitter and there was a book of love notes. Not like sweet gushy love notes, but spastic love notes... like me :) This was my favortie one:

The 11 most important words in the english language are not "You never test the depth of a river with both feet." They are, "So I'm, um, like totally in love with you, and stuff ( Read more... )

Everyone is always looking to celebrate for some reason. Most people think that Birthday's are the best time.... But it's hard to celebrate your birth when you feel like you've been dead most of your life. So, since today is my birthday, and I am looking back on my life I have decided to make some Birthday Resolutions. Yes, resolutions... like New ( Read more... )