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“Everything is gonna be just fine,” said the pen to the dotted line.
I haven’t been on here in a while. Seems like I only pay this account any mind at times when I have no other outlet. I have so many things to be thankful for, and I am…but why is it frowned upon to be unhappy when you have things to be thankful for? My body is falling apart before my eyes. Literally. My soft tissues are deteriorating. My ( Read more... ) -
Being mute won't and cannot save you
Sometimes I wish I had been the one to leave this world, than Justin.
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Today I had an epiphany!
I hate everything.
That's all.
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"..being mute won't and cannot save you"
I had a job interview today (now yesterday- it is now 5am and I have not been able to sleep) to potentially move up further in the company I've been with for the last 7 years. During the interview I was asked a question that essentially was looking for an answer having to do with something that I had to accomplish with a deadline and what steps I ( Read more... ) -
I'm happy to admit that maybe I am a little depressed, Cause I'm missing you to death.
if there's anything I can say about life and death-- it's that you shouldn't take for granted people you have in your life with you. i'm not going to be alive forever. i'm not always going to be here for you to yell at me. someday you'll go to my funeral.
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I'm sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here.
Justin would have been 25 today. He's constantly on my mind.
Also, where do you go when you die? I panic about it daily. I don't know why. I don't enjoy life anymore because I'm depressed about his death all the time. Never thought I'd want to die and be terrified of it at the same time. I'm confused. All I know is my best friend was taken away ( Read more... ) -
It'll be a brand new day..in a life that you hate.
I am spending my birthday with Nancy and probably Ryan. We are visiting Justin ( uponherarrival )'s grave. I deleted my Facebook account. I'm making bets that my boyfriend forgets all about my birthday. I don't think he cares much about me. My mom isn't doing well. I have better things to worry about.
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Its been two and a half years since you died. Still, not a single day goes by that I don't wake up and I'm instantly brought back to the day of your viewing. I want to remember you otherwise, but for some reason, all I can picture is you in your casket.
Everyday is an uphill battle.
I lead a miserable life. The only thing I am really thankful at ( Read more... ) -
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I am absolutely over being dragged down. Negativity really is the devil, and through my journey of coping with Justin's death, I've realized that so many unhappy people try to make other people just as miserable as they are. In my friendships and relationships, I've primarily just strived to feel normalcy. I don't take things out on my family, ( Read more... )