It's been so long. 
I don't even know where to start. 
It's seems like everything I feel is different and I can't seem to find the words to explain most of it.....i'll try again soon 

..has been working on her will.
I know it's just a precaution but...
...it worries me and makes it real..

but again..I can't show it to my family..
they need me strong for them.

Love you <3

I'm jealous that everyone around me is happy and with someone
but I'm alone and don't know how to make it feel better.
I don't wish it different because I am so happy that those I love are happy,
but I hate my need for love.

I'm glad I saw Nate and Jakob but I hate that I did.
I found out that I miss them both immensly for different reasons.
And I hate ( Read more... )

Just a quick update...sadly it's not gonna be a super good one.

You will all prolly look down on me a little for how much i've been drinking and how many random hookups (mostly just kissing). I'd explain more but its whatever.

I got turned down by my friend chris...because he's too focused on school. I didn't even get a straight answer on whether he ( Read more... )

It's been a while LJ and it took a random person telling me they like reading my stuff to bring me back. So Thanks For That ( Read more... )

how do you keep crawling back into my mind ? 
why ? 
why am i pulled to you ?
.....GAH!!!! 

In a matter of like two weeks everything has flipped ( Read more... )

Classes ( Read more... )

A New Haircut.
But nothing else.
well...kind of a new best friend.
Peanut has kept me busy and helped me through most things lately and most days.
Even if it's just a walk or random hanging out....but what i love more is.
GOing to the shows...i LOVED the punk show we went on friday.

James showed up again for a split second...
texted for a day and ( Read more... )

Of course something good happens and then something horrible ( Read more... )