This song I love...is exactly how I feel about stupid James...GAHFksdlgjkldfjgklejoijclkbnklfdshkfhjklas!!!! DKJHDFgkldfgsjhQDSKGHDSVLHSDOGISHGLSNLKDFHFG!!

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I'm happy you are all doing well and hoping to see you soon ( Read more... )

I don't know if any of you even see this anymore.
Maybe it will get my mind off of it if I type it out.

I'm tired ALLL THE TIME.
I don't know what I want.
I push everyone away,
when i need help i don't reach for it.
I let myself suffer bacue I fear making others around me suffer.

I haven't felt like myself in a LONG time now and
everyday it gets worse ( Read more... )

There's a jar of change (almost full/thanks to scotty mostly)
And I have no idea what i'm going to do with it.
Save it for a rainy day?

It was for Warped tour but i'm not going...I need to teach myself to stop spending.....it's hard for me.
Need to save.
I don't know what I want anymore.
Art School? Ferris? Tattoo?
I feel like doing all will not make me ( Read more... )

plan one :
Get to the doc this week.
Start something,
Work out a few times a week,
work on website.
Get back to Ferris and work hard to be better than before. the best.

Plan 2:
Don't get things started fast enough.
work at denso for a few more months.
Move to lansing (while working with therapist and docs)
to learn to tattoo.
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I'm Heartbroken.....no joke ( Read more... )

In this last month or so the love i've felt has grown ( Read more... )

This band has been probably my favorite since i found out they existed!
Taylor Momsen (Gossip Girl) is only 16 and more amazing as a singer than i ever thought.
These are two of my faves by them.
The acoustic version I just found and it's AMAZING! 
That and she looks possessed which makes me love her more cause she totally getting into it. lol

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I can ( Read more... )

I've been feeling pretty good for a few days now.
There have be urges and bad moments but nothing that has stuck.

Working on saterday helped.
Seeing Amanda and getting to talk to her helped.
Seeing Clinton and Sara helped.
Going to Steff's did helped.
Sunday was okay and it kept being okay.

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I'm alone.
With my mom.
With Scott.
With everyone at work.

but at the same time i find diamonds of people everywhere I go.
 "I know how hard it can be and I am sorry that you have to deal with it." -Andy from work. He's been in the confusion part of where I am with Biopolar Disorder.

And then there are the people that say things like this.
   " What ( Read more... )