I WILL POST.....I have stuff for all of you and i want to share it.
You all make me smile and I wanted to let you know

Firecracker Factory Girl
http://ginreckinspire.blogspot.com/2010/06/after-8-hours-of-stress-and-sweati-know.html

Church this morning was good and bad.
       I had fun but people have started noticing my scars, cuts and burns....not really the burns.( Sara and Brenna have)
        It scares me being at church during these things more than at work or hanging out.
      There people tell me that God still loves me and pray for me and all.
         I don't get ( Read more... )

For once I don't know what to do with my future and it terrifies me.....

Bad night. Breakdown over NOTHING. cutting...
this morning. late for work. horrid stomach cramps ( though i  was going to throw up for hours) . no work. called in.
feel horrible.

The world likes to trow shit at me.
I'm working on smiling through it and making the most of the bad days.

How am i making the most of today ? 
paying my ticket (speeding YAY ( Read more... )

For me to make the change I want to see in me.....
I need to change before I ruin myself more.
I know i have written this many times and
this might not be the last time I say it.

Work gives me ten hours a day to think.
I'm trying to figure out what needs to be done.
How to feel better about myself....
Nothing has worked yet.
I want to be better but how ( Read more... )

It's gone.
The feeling.
I can't even look myself in the mirror.
The pain is growing.
It all hurts.
Atleast I got to know the feeling for a day....
who cares if it never comes back right ?

...everything seems hopeless again....i'm sorry

I feel epically Beautiful.
I Hope this never goes away
never

It's harder than I ever expected.
Lonelier too.
I don't want to lose people but i can't make them stay...
they are busy...
Love you all....

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