the absence of some things this weekend made me realize why i really want to move. even the brief moments of walking up and down the street alone made me feel at ease and like i belonged in a place i wasn't accustomed to. seeing the lake made me feel like i was at home in florida with out all the weight of being in a city where there are so many ( Read more... )

i feel a void

im living to work instead of working to live, but honestly its hard to remember a time i wasn't. it has been this way to fucking long.

i read something in a book recently that made death seem so calming and peaceful it was oddly calming. just knowing one day up or down you will have that one moment of absolute peace, could you

it would seem that everything i want is going undone and new things are coming out of that. the new stuff is not really as satisfying but will do. I find myself at these moments where beating things works, just slamming things into another ( Read more... )

its sitting in the fridge

the crew shall be together once again tonight

sometimes i just feel like sleeping and being at work ( Read more... )

My plans for this month have fallen into pieces for more reasons than one ( Read more... )

well i think that besides my jobs i am ready to leave stl. now that i am there in my mind and will now starting laying the ground work to move i realize what i do and do not like about this city. My mom told me its the same shit in every city but i know what you mean its a different city. I have reasons to move as well so its better this way i ( Read more... )

getting a call at some point this week from starbucks. It will be a relief but on the same hand just more shit ( Read more... )

i find my self sleeping for long hours when i manage to fall asleep for no reason at all. this past week was easy and nothing much really to cause my slumbers ( Read more... )

june i miss you far more than i ever thought i would or could. You held to many changes in your days that i have been left aside to wish for them once more ( Read more... )