I am 18 and found out yesterday that I'm pregnant. To be honest, I am freaking out and don't know what to do. My boyfriend and I are long distance (he just left 4 the army) but i dont think were ready. Although he thinks its 4 the best, I do not want to have an abortion. My parents would not be accepting and so I don't want to tell them the news. I ( Read more... )

last nite was a killer. i just realised how hard it is 2 fall asleep w/o hearing his voice 1st. i miss cuddling wit him. now the only thing i have 2 hold is 1 of his old sweaters. it was pretty depressing. But i was super mad. i was upset & my mom noticed & made me lay down w/ her & tell her wat was wrong. im already uncomfortable sharing my ( Read more... )

i watched him leave... as cool & confident as usual. it rlly made me think about the situation. hes gonna b ok & so am i (i hope) i want 2 cry but i think im out of tears. its just the begining so i think im over thinking... but its just knowing he wont b here 4 me as often as im used 2 is kinda eating @ me

so 2day is officially the day hes leaving.... i was rlly pissed off last nite cuz i couldnt c him. 2 much drama getting back & forth. but by some kind of miracle my dad offered to drive me all the way over there this morning 2 c him off. I'm glad i get 2 c him 1 more time. I'm not scared b/c its honestly not a scary situation. I guess its just b/c ( Read more... )

So this is my 1st post. Pretty much venting from now on. Im keeping busy. I'm doing this partially 2 clear my head but also 2 deal wit the stress. my bf is finally leaving 4 the army . it kinda sucks. hes rlly all i have @ home but w.e i need a hobby or some shit lol. it hasnt rlly set in but wen he leaves 2mrrw i guess maybe it will (not that im ( Read more... )