my new pet!!!


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i'm a bad person.. and i don't want to be argued with when i say that. i accept it.. not quite embrace it, yet clearly i'm not trying to change it. maybe i'm not as bad as some, and maybe i'm worse than others.. who cares what percentile i fall in to.. it doesn't lessen how bad i am. i hurt people far worse and way more often than i myself have ( Read more... )

maybe its because i dont wear make-up often. maybe its because i don't have long, perfect hair. maybe its because i dont spend money i dont have on clothes i dont need. maybe its because i get nervous and cant think of how to be extroverted on the spot. maybe, just maybe, its because im not pretty enough. or maybe its because i cant find a way to ( Read more... )

i guess i didn't realize how unhappy i was until right this moment. fuck. i'm so pathetic it's ridiculous. i feel destroyed..ten fucking pictures just did me in.

I've hit an all time low of brokeness..or brokedom.. or insert whatever "broke" word you can. I'm smoking roll-your-own cigarettes.. and they suck. 2 bucks though.. and here, in new york, two bucks for anything is a fuckin deal ( Read more... )

so much for not smoking. that lasted less than a day. i'm supposed to have the patch coming in the mail... i'm also supposed to have a best buy card.. and i'm also supposed to have the box to mail my ipod in.. what the hell is the matter with the postal service? are they on strike and i don't know it? i'm so sick of waiting ( Read more... )

today is bizzare.. i walked outside, and there is a vail of grey sitting on everything.. like walking through a strange fog. i sat with melissa while she did her laundry. my concept of time is shot.. it must have taken atleast an hour, though it felt like a mere 5 minutes. i haven't had a cell phone for several days now, and although it is semi- ( Read more... )

my phone charger is busted.. i have no way to charge my phone.. a new one will be here tuesday or wednesday...if you need me, email.

first of all, let me just say that there IS a difference between bottled, canned and fountain soda.. totally. fountain is my favorite.. it just tastes better ( Read more... )

today was a good one. i cleaned the apartment of one of my teachers..a barter for his private classes. if i wasn't 20, and he wasn't 60.. that was the talk. he saw the yardbirds, cream, led zeppelin, jefferson airplaine..all of them. he owns all of the kinks albums. incredibly smart, talented, funny.. too bad.. i'm too shallow and he's too old. he ( Read more... )