hi, it's me. avid lj'er turned lurker. i'm back with a cry for help. you've all heard about my dad. you know that story. well, he's dying. probably of cancer but he refuses medical treatment and has lost 14 pounds in the last week. At this rate he won't be around long. I need to see him. I have to. and i need help. we can't afford this, even with ( Read more... )

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I think I want to get Mike a camera for Christmas. He likes film and hates the delay shutter speed on your typical digital point and shoots. I like digital because I like being able to upload to the computer. I think he would like a "film style" camera that is digital but would also be stoked on a film camera. Being able to zoom and take action ( Read more... )

With all the news of the DC sniper being executed yesterday it has brought back the memories of those last few weeks in October 2002 before I stepped onto that plane to Seattle. Meth was my best friend and it only added to the paranoia. Every white van made my heart pound in my chest. Getting gas as fast as I could, looking over my shoulder, ( Read more... )

So I'm sure that Izzy has a yeast rash. She has three little blisters and she's always itchin her butt when we go diaperless. Rather than post in I thought i'd just post here because I have a lot of knowledgeable mamas on my flist. I'm sure it's been covered in clothdiapering but I don't have time to look for the info. Can someone tell what the ( Read more... )

I totally don't need such a big friends list. No one ever has anything to say so I'm assuming no one will be butthurt. I should journal in private, my connection with el jay died long ago.

I flushed 14 Vicodin down the toilet yesterday. Harsh, but necessary. Haven't been writing much in my 1st step. I'm finally to the part where I've arrived in Seattle and I'm dreading the memories, and putting pen to paper ( Read more... )

Patience is a virtue, I apparently do not have. I have so much to say and I don't feel like anyone is listening!!

Apparently, CPS will not let Kia come out here. They are going to ship her to different foster homes until.....? Her mom is going to detox and then what? I am so upset.

Kia is in foster care. Her moms in the hospital. I'm making phone calls trying to get her but I dunno...I'm in Seattle! Fuck fuck fuck.