Second worst day of my life.

You were still all i thought about today..all i missed through out it..i hate this.
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I hope this changes soon. At this rate ill be emotionally dead and physically zombie looking. 
I dont want this at all, fuck why arent you talking to me??

I had a good dream with you, woke up all happy and was gonna text you and then i realized it wasnt like my dream. I stopped. As happy as i had felt that moment, that turned into 5 times into sadness. Couldnt even move. Didnt go to school. Just laid there until now. Crying. Getting yelled at by mom. I wonder how youre feeling. You ignored my text ( Read more... )

Its going to be awhole day that we havent talked..seems like a first in so long. I absolutely hate it. Youre all ive thought about. Im worried about you..how you are. Since this counts as a day, Then its officially considered the worst in my entire life. I knew losing you would hurt i just didnt think it would be this bad. I wish you would talk to ( Read more... )

Why? Everything always goes wrong. You took what i said wrong? How the fuck would you have reacted if i would of told you that i didnt believe you were truly in love with me? I guess you would of just laughed it off and said it was ok right?? Ive been crying all night. And my tears are still pouring down my face. Snot fills my fucking nose and is ( Read more... )

Why are you upset?
Are you upset at me??
you didnt really make it clear
and the last thing you asked me was that one question
and you didnt reply and i understand that cuz i know how your mom is but i cant stop thinking about how youre upset at me im guessing
what gets me even madder is that i wanted to hang out tomorrow in the morning
even if it were ( Read more... )

Well that was unexpected.
i would think that she would consider that offensive
but i guess she didnt
if she allows him to talk to her like that through a comment
then whats it like when theyre on the phone.
wow.
great.
i dont even know antymore.
tears and more tears.
i hate them.
Seattkes sounding pretty good right now.
im in trouble.
testing.
tired.
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ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Today sucked so bad.
Aside from that, stress stress stress!!!!

i felt so ehhhh
ignored? idk
its not the right word but i cant think of anything else
I shoudl be asleep
tests.
but either way i wont be. ima fail everything.

And to make matters worse

i miss you.

we didnt talk all day. All damn day.
And when you finally replied i ( Read more... )

btw:

I don't care that you're needy and need a lot of affection because you know i give it to you every single time that i have you to myself. I'd be with you every waking moment of every waking day if it were possible, no matter what! I'll do anything to keep you smiling that radiantly magnificent smile of yours.

As these tears drops spill

I cant help but think

How horrible of a person i am

I do one good thing

And follow it up with 5 bad things

I cant help you

I dont know what to say

I dont know what to do

Whenever you get like this

I need to be besides you

Because thats how i feel i help most

My actions speak much louder

Than my words

Im sorry

For being the way i am

I ( Read more... )

Stupid Anger issues.

Stupid Head.

Stupid Mind.

Stupid jealousy making me go crazy.

I dont want to go, i dont want to do anything.

Started out in such a good way and now we had to get into it
why am i so stupid? Why cant i keep my big mouth shut??

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I kill everything.