i just realized that as of today, dave and i have been broken up for exactly one month. i dont know how i feel about that...weird...

i received an email from southwest airlines last night telling me that i had earned a free roundtrip flight to anywhere southwest flies. im part of their rapid rewards program, which is basically like frequent flier miles. i think its something like if you make 8 round trip flights in a year you get a certificate that is good for one year. at first ( Read more... )

alice cooper is having a show about an hour north of here...ON HALLOWEEN!omg! ... and i cant go because i'm flying up to see kristen. damn it! this is like Sophie's Choice! (except not really the choice part because im going to see kristen ha ha).

looks like the show isnt going to be until october. since my friend and i have "dark art" they want to put it up for halloween as it is a spooky month. i think its so they can get out of decorating for the holiday. that means i'm going to have to go to the storage unit and pull out my work that is in there. ::sigh:: this is when i miss having my ( Read more... )

i just got asked to do another art show this month! it's the day before the cancer society show. it's going to be at the U-31 night club in north park on september 19th (for those of my san diego friends). the club is LITERALLY right down the street from my new place. i'm hoping it is going to go well. man, it's good to have a hook up ( Read more... )

i finished moving into katie and colin's this weekend. all my stuff is out of my la jolla apartment, or rather, my "old" apartment. i think it's good for me to be out of there. all i could think about is all the memories dave and i have there. even thinking about it now makes me sad ( Read more... )

my feelings are really hurt right now. i miss him a lot more as a friend than a partner. maybe partner is too strong a word as i have always been the one giving more and trying harder. i'm trying not to care but it hurts me a lot.

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today is not a good day. i woke up so depressed i almost called in for work. i decided that would be a bad move so here i am. i just dont understand what is going on with me. i decided to trying lowering my abilify some in order to stretch out the prescription i have until pay day. that might be one reason i'm depressed. no meds = more feeling. ( Read more... )

ok, wtf? i've been trying to make friendly conversation with david via email and he has stopped responding. we really had a legitimate, deep conversation going on and then, boom, nothing. he's the one that was emphatic about us being friends but when i try to be friendly not a peep. wtf? i'm not going to grovel. i'm gonna give it another week or so ( Read more... )