Time to myself, (which I have had an unsuprising lack of over the last three months between my job, living with Matt and a seemingly endless string of visitors) is rejuvanating and lovely but invariably pummels me with overwhelming listlessness. Without the constant distraction of other people and the endlessly repetitive, meaningless but somehow ( Read more... )

I didn't know that stability was like this. It is dull, it is thrilling, it is unnerving, worrisome. I feel trapped, I feel vulnerable, I feel elated. The difference between this and the whirlwind of adolescent emotions, I guess, is that at the end of it all I know who I will be going to sleep next to at night. My jags are unified, subdued by one ( Read more... )

Things always start lining up, it seems, at the precise moment I stop needing them to ( Read more... )

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose or topaz ( Read more... )

My life is a series of gratifying, awe-inspiring moments punctuated with painfully humbling ones.

So I'm on this antibiotic for a mild kidney infection and out of curiousity I googled it ( Read more... )

I have to play a grad recital in 7 weeks, don't I?

It's very cold here and I speak roughly 15 words of French, but I'm having a great time. I'm staying with my lovely friend Genevieve. We've been drinking excessive amounts of french beer, playing trombone and pretending that we can speak spanish. Tonight we're going to make crafts and watch shitty TV in high definition. I guess that sounds boring ( Read more... )

I went to a career fair today ( Read more... )

Academic arrogance deflated.