These days it seems as if i have no more energy to put in anything. Friendships, school, family,existence....really whats the use. I think the only thing I'm holding on to is the future. In hopes that maybe something will finally brighten my day. The only person that loves me the most can since it in my voice and yet i cant. I try to energize my ( Read more... )

    Why do people use the words "I'm sorry" ; it's pointless. It's meaningless. It's used so often that you know by now it's never meant. So whats the point. The problem is you can't replace a wrong doing with 2 words that mean absolutely nothing but thought to make people feel better. It's useless to tell me i'm sorry anymore cause all i'm going ( Read more... )

You know that song live like you were dying. Thats basically what I'm trying to do. I don't want a happy moment to pass me by. Like the quote says life is nothing but a buch of moments and you have to live up each and every one of them.

My moms been so nice to me lately. Its starting to make me think that something really bad is geting ready ( Read more... )

     Today as I sat outside of school waiting for my brother to get there.... I couldn't help but sit there and recite a poem in my head....it went a little something like this.

As the seconds turned into minutes, as minutes turned into days, as days turned into weeks and as weeks turned into months, I am still waiting for my ride home. The ride ( Read more... )

  Wow. I never thought that reality would hit me so hard. I started at D- Walt. The alternative school i have to go to because I was a teenager and brought alcohol to school. I really don't know how I'm going to get through this. Man at this school i sit in a cubical all day and do packet work. Imagine doing that for 18 weeks!!! I promise i will go ( Read more... )

Its been so long since ive actually got to write in this. Well let me fill you in here. Im in almost perfect happiness. I still have my sorro times but im good. Im still working and i have a awesome boyfriend. I think for the first time im in love. i think. welll got to go love ya bye

I hate the way I act. I never know if it's what people like or not. This year alone I have manged to lose 4 best friends. These are the people that are always supposed to be there for you. Or so I thought.

I was told last night that every time some one tries to get close to me, I push them away. Well it's kinda hard to get close to someone that ( Read more... )

Never Better

Things never get better they just die off,

They will never come together they'll  just pull apart

They eat inside and die in your heart

Love ones are one thing pride is anougther

it lights the fire that burns your teather

to let you fall into the emotionless pit they call depression

but it only takes one part one time one person to ( Read more... )

Man it is really fucked up when you try to be the best friend you can and it never shows to the other person. I guess I was right when i said no matter how hard I try at something it will never show. You know I never hold a fucking gruge. Never! I try my hardest to be there as much as posible for my friends. No matter how many times they screw me ( Read more... )

Yes I have the greatest boyfriend. He's awesome I love to talk to him. I have not been able to communicate with my friends. that kinda sucks.

WORK is kicking my ass big time. I am soo tired. I love it but omg sleep I don't see. No one seems to want me to sleep. Everytime I try someone stops me it's kool though.

Everything is starting to look up now ( Read more... )