birthday wasnt too exciting but it was decent.
the night before was too crazy. i was so drunk i cant believe i wasnt vomiting.

my tea's gone cold, i'm wonder why i got out of bed at all ( Read more... )

a lot of people say their parents are crazy.

most of them are exaggerating.

i am not.

"WHY IS MY SOAP IN THE GARBAGE??"

i dont go on here for a little over a month and this thing goes crazy. what is goin on?!! lol ( Read more... )

i am now home from the hospital.

anyone who wants to come over and watch a movie with me would be more than welcome. i am lonely already. heh.

so today i took my first shower since wednesday. it burned like hell despite the pain meds, but i got a lot of gunk off my face that they couldnt get off with q-tips ( Read more... )

so yesterday i had lots of visitors. i felt loved. today i'm going to have way fewer, but theyre going to be my estranged family- accidents always make family members feel bad.

here's the pictures maria took of me yesterday with her cameraphone (theyd be bigger but my photobucket is being gay)

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i guess karma has it's way.

i wrote about how i hate my life and the next day i almost died.
2 days ago i was in a motorcycle accident.
thrashed my face, my left arm including hand, and the skin on my back.


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i fucking hate my life.
i hate my fucking car.
i hate my fucking jobs.
i hate my fucking regrets. my fucking bad decisions.
i hate people.
i hate bob.
i hate myself.

everyones either gone or going. except me. i'm a failure. the fuck up.

i hate this fucking life and i wish that i could be someone else.

i love matt's new motorcycle. in the past 2 days we went out to dekalb and out to chicago on it. i am not sure if it's the freedom and speed that makes it exciting, or the fact that every moment is an 'oh shit' moment when matt is driving ( Read more... )