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"Think like lightening, but move like a glacier."I should be celebrating graduating college today. But I am not. Instead I am barricaded in a state that is less my home now then it was before. My heart yearns for something more then what I am and I fear that more than anything. I've let go of so much and I've grown. I'm still growing. I've learned ( Read more... )

A kiss is something you cannot give without taking and cannot take without giving.I'm so tired of guys wanting to make-out or get in my pants before they even know me. This might sound arrogant, but it's very true. I would never call myself a hot girl or desirable or anything like that, but I know I am not ugly. Yet for the life of me I don't ( Read more... )

Please speak slowly, my heart is learning.

I don't really have anything to say. I'm well. A little disappointed in myself about the semester, but nothing I can do about it now. Turn the page and keep moving forward.

Family Guy starts again tonight.

That's it.

So my father emailed my mother today to tell her and to inform my brother and I that my uncle Bob died last night. He died of an asthma attack. I don't even remember my uncle. I don't even really know most of my father's family or really even my father for that matter. But I am sad. I'm not really sure what I am sad about though. I think not ( Read more... )

"She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
Some days it's not worth trying
Now that they both are finding
She gets so sick of crying"My life has been changing for a while and it hasn't always been easy on me. The past few days, I've felt the effects of this transformation more than usual, and now I'm ( Read more... )

The future is a mistress
That is so hard to please
And the past
Is a pebble in my shoeI don't even know. I could spend the next million words out of my mouth complaining about all the things that are going sour for me OR I could just say things suck and go about it ( Read more... )

Let go of whatever is already slipping away.Today has kinda been a cleansing day. Rearranged the room. Cleaned. Got rid of stuff, pictures, memories, just stuff. Got school stuff together. Worried about finals and grades. It was one of those days where everything seemed a little off. But things are okay. I am well, just trying to get things back on ( Read more... )