One of my friends freezes vitamin water and then eats it like a slushy. I really want to do that, and the closest that i have to that is crystal light pink lemonade, which i REALLY LIKE. i'm going to try it after my competition this weekend.

I don't play violin for recognition. I play to be heard. Love you, Hotaru.

So the cookies at my school seem to have a laxitave effect...

I started having REALLY bad stomach aches (really, really bad), weighed myself before going to the bathroom, and was a full pound lighter afterwards. I still have a stomach ache, but it's not bad. It was worth the pain to lose a pound.

if i do manage to be 112.5 by May 19, I plan to be 111 by May 23. even if not, I'm definitely going to have fun shopping and whatever. I definitely need to be below at least 105 by the time school lets out.

Well. THAT was a mistake. I started off the day eating popcorn, probably 100 cals. Then I skipped 4th period and had a cookie. 250. Tacos? Definitely. 400. PEANUT BUTTER JELLY SADWICH? absolutely. 300. more fucking icecream? yah. 400. dinner? piggy me, 2 cobs of corn. 250. sandwich afterwards, though i was already full? indeed. 400. hah ( Read more... )

I'm 114.5 pounds, squarely. this is awesome. 2 pounds to go.

All night yesterday, I had a dream about being in his quartet. As in, i woke up 4 times, yet my dream kept going.

I just weighed myself - 115.0 squarely after eating all that and wearing a shirt. Lookin good.

There was a movie 1st period, and I had a lot of popcorn.:( Probably 100 cals. All i had for lunch was a bagel and creamcheese though, and i was really going to binge. so, it was good. 300 cals ( Read more... )

...I'M 114.8! YAY! i broke my 116.5 plataeu that i was stuck at. 2.5 more pounds to go until teepee day! please, please, PLEASE don't let me binge. i can't afford to lose control now. I'm so close.

In physics, there was an after-AP party, and i must have eaten at least 4 pounds of chocolate. like 40 hershy's kisses. that's like 600 calories. damn. but i didn't have lunch, so i guess it's ok. Then, on the way home, i got bubble milk tea.. i don't know how many calories it contains. Then, for dinner, I had a bunch of mushrooms, and that's it. I ( Read more... )

I'm 115.5 solid. Yay. More violin today, and mom says that we can go to california at the end of June, if we go. Not enough to give me motivation, but still exciting. around June, I'll know if we're going, so hopefully i'll be at least 110 by June, so by the end of June I can get down to 105 ( Read more... )