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another day in paradise
Just another day in th paradise that is known as my life ( Read more... ) -
new journal entry
Well I always say im going to try and make this a regular thing but i never seem to stick with it. I really need to with how crazy my life is getting and needing more of an outlet than ever so well see if I can get my shit together with this fancy new Ipad version I have. Gone are the posts on my cell phone or the computer we are officially really ( Read more... ) -
Lets see if we can make this regular
Well it seems in almost every low point in my life I always regress back to journaling. I'm not sure if I feel the need to reflect more on what is going on with my life to process it, or if I just think it won't sound as bad if I write it down. So lets see where am I in my life. I am still married to my wonderful husband. Coming up on 7 years, of ( Read more... ) -
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Well here I am sitting on the couch while Stan is working out a budget. We're trying to move to Florida and buy a house, but we need to get out finances together first. Never too much fun doin this though :( ethan was a real little shit tonight and I totally lost my temper with him. I have been teetering on the edge for weeks with his crap and it ( Read more... ) -
deep depression
ok, so I'm married to a great guy. I thought he was the love of my life but for some reason I always go back to something that's really really bad for me. Chris is the other man in my life. I'm not doing anything with him. Hell, I haven't even seen him in like 3 years, but I am still drawnn to this guy. He is seriously TOXIC. We message back and ( Read more... ) -
fat as usual
today mom and I went to asian buffet, I ate a plate full of stuff, I felt so guilty so I went to the bathroom and threw it up. I think she knew what was going on, but it's my life so I can do whatever I want. I'm so freaking stressed out right now. between never seeing stan anymore and us being broke it just really freaking killing me. why does ( Read more... ) -
another day closer to giving birth...
Well here I am chewing on ice again... that seems to be my diet food of choice lately. It's about the only thing that cools me down. It's another day. I didn't do much of anything yesterday besides get up early. I was supposed to go to the doctor, but I decided that I wasn't going to go if they weren't going to do a damn thing for me. Stan and I ( Read more... ) -
I'm back
dammit, it's been a long time since I wrote anything on here. Quick little update... Married (as of August 2, 2005) to a great man (Stan Steward). 9 months pregnant, and not a happy camper. I feel like shit, and this midget is not coming out yet. I am a miserable woman at the moment. I have never been so fat in my entire life. Well that and there's ( Read more... ) -
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Whiskey Lullaby ( Read more... ) -
Could not be more true
The CIA had an opening for an assassin. After all the background checks ( Read more... )