just work and boring things as far ahead as you can think this is exactly what i've been thinking lately.
&& i wish we lived closer, anywhere, a small town, a big city...i just feel like we would click you know? but maybe not. things are always so different in 'real life'
To the first paragraph, that's a bit how I feel teaching my students about art. It's a wonder, then, how I come home feeling so delicate and broken sometimes at the end of the day, but I guess it's hard to feel so passionately about something to someone who feels quite the opposite--my passion versus their apathy.
And then I contradict myself this very evening at an art show I attended at the local high school. The artists stood there either quietly while I nervously tried to absorb their heART without making waves in any sort of direction...or else they mingled with their high school buddies talking about skanks and my having a sudden distaste for their art due to their gaggling conversations.
ahh, yeah, i feel the same way with art. in my head i'm so excited and passionate about it, but i'm so timid to show that to other people. it bothers me at gallery showings when people just stand in circles and talk to each other about uninteresting things, after they only viewed the art for a few seconds. it doesn't make sense to me at all.
oh no, i know. i didn't mean for this to be a complaining-entry. ahh now i'm worried about coming off that way! i think i just tend to use livejournal as a place to put all those feelings of doubt and insecurity. i'm really not like this in real life. :/
This entry is so so beautiful & brings to mind so many beautiful images. =) I like it when I make new friends & suddenly I'm going on all kinds of adventures...it sounds like you're one of those awesome new friends who gives you new music & art & places to go. I hope you never ever lose that! (I don't think you will, though, from the way you write =)
I live in Missouri & sometimes, I am just the opposite--I wish I could go outside & see coffeeshops & storefronts & people instead of just trees. But I always like it when people really appreciate the country for what it is.
Try not to worry, with each new year, you are getting better & wiser. Nothing will happen that you won't allow to happen. You know? There's really nothing to be afraid of, it sounds like things are really going great. And the show sounded like it was really exiting! Congrats =)
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this is exactly what i've been thinking lately.
&& i wish we lived closer, anywhere, a small town, a big city...i just feel like we would click you know? but maybe not. things are always so different in 'real life'
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And then I contradict myself this very evening at an art show I attended at the local high school. The artists stood there either quietly while I nervously tried to absorb their heART without making waves in any sort of direction...or else they mingled with their high school buddies talking about skanks and my having a sudden distaste for their art due to their gaggling conversations.
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I live in Missouri & sometimes, I am just the opposite--I wish I could go outside & see coffeeshops & storefronts & people instead of just trees. But I always like it when people really appreciate the country for what it is.
Try not to worry, with each new year, you are getting better & wiser. Nothing will happen that you won't allow to happen. You know? There's really nothing to be afraid of, it sounds like things are really going great. And the show sounded like it was really exiting! Congrats =)
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