WHOLE LOTTA LOVE - CHAPTER 12 PART 1

[luna_no_koibito]

Title: Whole Lotta Love
Chapters: 12.1 /17
Author: luna_no_koibito
Genre: Romance, Life
Warnings:  men/men relationship, cursing, sex, violence.
                      FOR THIS STORY the band NIGHTMARE will be a PS Company band
Rating: from PG -15 to PG -17 (Depending on chapter)
Pairing: Shou,Gackt (main) Ruki/Hyde, Kai/Ruka, Hiroto/Reita, Miyavi/Hizaki
               (more pairs will appear as the story proceeds)
Bands: Gazette, Alice Nince, Nightmare, Versailles, Kra (for now ...)
Summary:
                   Year: 2004
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Chapter 11 part 2


-... I~jyo! - happily and loudly chanted Nao, as he tiredly dragged out the first syllable of the one word he was apt to scream whenever they reached the end of their practice session for the day - … today, ladies and strongmen - he playfully resumed, respectfully glimpsing at Shou and Tora -... was what I'd like to define as a perfectly executed practice session, absolutely im-pec-ca-ble ...- explained the drummer, assuming a fake air of self-importance, as he leisurely moved away a strands of his blond her from his sticky forehead, while still clasping both his drumsticks in each of his hands, as if to show no sign of exhaustion, which, as Shou began to look around, was a factor they all seemed to share at the moment. Yet, it had indeed been an outstanding practice, almost deprived of mistakes, in which everyone seemed to be playing for the fun of it, there was no palpable tension among any of them, and this, according to Shou, the silly carelessness and joyful passion, was a feeling that couldn't rival in pleasure with any of their recent pursuit of perfection and fame; this was the Alice Nine, he wanted the world to know.

-Do you even know the meaning of the word impeccable Nao … - smirked Tora, turning around towards the drummer, while pointing his guitar towards him as if it were a weapon. Nao's reaction to the unintended offense, was as graceful as his demeanor had been since the beginning of practice, yet not necessarily polite, given that he resolved to flick off the elder guitarist with the aid of both his drumsticks, while cutely smiling -Uh! ... you hurt me Naoyuki ...- teasingly declared Tora, placing his right hand flat on the left side of his chest, as he morphed his features into a pretense hurt expression, making the rest of the members in the room laugh out loud for a while

-Leave him alone ...- serenely intervened Saga, patting his boyfriend on his left shoulder, while playfully nodding his head in apology at the drummer, who feigned offense, and turned his head away, while folding his arms in his chest -... aw come on Nao … - pleadingly dragged out Saga, as he walked right besides the drummer - you know that ...- he then suddenly paused to swiftly poke the drummer in his ribs, which maid the slightly chubby drummer rapidly bounce on his throne, while he looked up at the bassist with a playful warning expression -... he didn't mean ...- continued Saga, after which he poked the drummer again, who newly bounced, this time mercifully pouting, as he observed Tora joining his boyfriend on the other side of the drummer -... that- concluded Saga trying to poke the drummer, whom however readily stopped the action, but found himself still jolting in his throne, as Tora reached for his ribs on the other side

-Oh no … you guys, I mean it, seriously ...don- tried to warn the drummer, cautiously looking from Saga to Tora, and vice versa, as he so them exchanging mischievous looks, and before the drummer could finish the sentence, they were already tickling the hell out of the small drummer, under the extremely diverted looks of a rather joyful Shou, and an as well tranquil looking Hiroto, whom after placing his guitar in his case, suddenly approached Shou

-Shou ? … - lightly called the younger, to whom the taller readily turned, while performing a humming inquisitive sound, as he then perplexedly observed Hiroto's somewhat mortified expression -... I need to talk to you for a second … if you don't mind ...- resumed the younger, still keeping his cautious tone, which quickly got rid of any trace of hilarity on the vocalist's features, while he nodded in agreement, and followed the guitarist out of the studio, down the hallway, and through window-doors that took them outside on that floor's terrace. Hiroto, whose pace was rather normal, almost cautious, walked towards the rail, and placed his back on it, as he held his head low, and silently fixed his gaze on his shoes, while Shou stopped some feet a way, standing right in front of him, and wondering whether he shouldn't also walk over to rely on the “offered” rail

-Pon? ...- then suddenly called the taller, after some minutes of an incredibly disturbing and incessant silence, as he kept intently observing the younger, who nodded, and slowly sighed, while finally raising his head towards him

-I … - began the younger, and quickly stopped, lightly smirking with a tinge of sarcasm in his expression, as he shifted his wait on his right foot -... where to start? … - he quickly added, as he breathed out -... I guess ...- he then resumed, looking away from Shou for a second -... I could start by apologizing, for my behavior in the recent days - he firmly stated, soon after which, he leaned away from the rail, and apologetically bowed at the taller -... sumimasen deshita!- he tloudly declared

-Oi ...- swiftly exclaimed Shou, taking a few steps forward, reaching the younger, on whose shoulder he cautiously placed his hand,in order to push the younger back into a standing position -... I can't recall you doing anything that would have to make you turn all formal on me now ...- cautiously giggle the taller blond -... and things like that make me feel rather uncomfortable, you know that … - he then added, placing himself on the rail right next to the younger, whom followed in toe

-Well … is just that ...- resumed the younger -... you know, you are without any doubt my best friend, and I know without any doubt, that you know me, more than anybody else does … -resumed the guitarist, as he fixed his gaze in front of himself, while absently playing with his fingers -... as such, I know you probably sensed something wrong with me … and giving that I kept saying that I was okay, as the awesome person that you are, I am sure that ...- he then stopped to quickly smile up at the blond -... I am pretty sure that you probably just left it at that, and kept silently worrying for me ...- he concluded, looking up at the vocalist with his side view

-Something like that ...- admitted Shou, glimpsing down at the younger -... you could say that yeah ...- he added, turning on his side, with his elbow on the rail, as he faced Hiroto's side -... so is there actually a problem? … because you look genuinely happy to me at the moment - observed Shou, as the younger replied with an as genuine smile, while his face displayed a tinge of a blush

-Because I am ...- resumed Hiroto, lightly swinging himself back and forth -... I am extremely happy, and I am still finding it so hard to believe- declared the younger, receiving a slow nod from Shou, whom even though was exceedingly content to here such words form the younger, was somehow finding it hard to follow the younger's statements at the moment -... you see … I think I finally fell in love again ...- he then concluded, turning his head toward Shou, and shyly smiling at the taller, who confusedly blinked down at him

-Things with Reita had been going fine for quite a while now … did you just realize? ...- carefully inquired the taller, with a gentle grin

-Hmmhm ...- negatively hummed the younger, while lightly shaking his head - … things have been fine, but I wasn't ...- confessed the younger -... you see … there is something ... one big thing that has happened to me long ago, when we were in high school … one thing, the only thing, I have never told you ...- paused the younger, looking up at the elder in a demeaning manner - … and that something was preventing me form ever have any normal kind of romantic relationship, explaining why it felt like I was with Reita, but I truly wasn't, why I kept my distance …. -began to explain the younger, as Shou took is time to stay silent, and carefully listen- I was scared … and this my fright had pushed everyone else I tried to be with away … everyone, but Reita ...- continued Hiroto, as Shou expression began to gradually harden, almost seeming scared to find out, what this 'thing” was all about

-You don't need to tell me … I know we tell each other everything ...- suddenly announced Shou, who was now being slowly engulfed by his own guilt for he was currently hiding something from the shorter as well - … but obviously, this is something that makes you uncomfortable so it is oka- tried to finish the taller, whom was however interjected by the younger

-But I have to ...- firmly declared the younger -... I want to ...- he then added, in a much gentler tone, as he returned his gaze in front of himself -... do you remember that time in senior high, when I had that very bad illness? … I kept throwing up, and I just was a mess, all around, all day long ...- suddenly inquired the younger

-Yes … how could I forget ...- cautiously replied Shou -... at a point I began to wonder, if there really wasn't anything such as male pregnancy … because seemed to show all the symptoms, though I would have been wrong anyways, given that you hadn't had sex in high school, and- began to recall Shou, who however had been newly interrupted by the younger, whom brought his arms behind his back, as he kept staring in front of himself

-You would have been right ...- stated Hiroto -... if there were to exist anything such as male pregnancy, I would have indeed been going through that … because I had had sex, and that had been a reaction to my first time ...- concluded Hiroto, lowering his head, leaving Shou dumbly blinking to himself, as he opened his mouth to say something, but nothing seemed to be brave enough to attempt a come out -... the guy I had dated during high school, he … got with me, just for that, sex. That night he left me alone in the love hotel love room where we did it with money and a note ...- concluded Hiroto, slightly smirking, as his features clearly showed him trying his best to block whatever emotion of anger, or sadness that was trying to surface -... I had been used, and my brain couldn't accept it, because I truly did love him … and that had been one big blow for me ...- stated Hiroto, with a light ironical smirk

-Hiroto … - softly called Shou, who was now the one absently looking over the guitarist, and seriously hating his lack of anything better to say to his best friend after such a revelation, hating not being able to confide in him that he was very happy as well, that he thought he had finally found love as well; … and today had looked like such a beautiful day

-It okay ...- confidently smiled Hiroto, turning to face Shou -.... as I said, I am alright now, and I just needed you to know that, to apologize to you, and … just to get things back to the way they were between us … kinda missed you … even though you have been here all this time … and ...- continued Hiroto, pausing for a second, apparently trying to find the right words -... I hate that feeling, missing someone, who you clearly have no reason too … I guess this is how Reita had been feeling all along … for so long ...- he observed, his features momentarily assuming a rather pained expression -... but now it is alright, I am glad he didn't give up on me, and I am glad just wanted to make sure I wasn't … losing you as well I guess? ...- concluded Hiroto, smiling at the taller, who quickly chuckled, rolling his eyes

-Like you could ever … chibi! …. - playfully stated Shou - there is a reason why I am so much taller tha you are ...- added the vocalist, leaning a bit forward, to set their eyes on the same level -... which is for you to just be able to look up and iedeatly spot me, when you think you are lost, or that you lost me ...- he concluded with a smirk, and teasingly pushing his index finger on the younger's forehead -... understood? - he then quickly added, receiving a firm nod from the younger

-Good, now that this is settled, time to go! ...- quickly said Hiroto, clapping his hands together once, action which took Shou a little aback, for he hadn't expected the younger to be looking so eager to do who knew what so soon - I have actually been waiting for the end of today like… really bad … so … yeah ...- he explained looking back at a still slightly bemused Shou, who lightly shook his head in resignation -... so I am going to Reita now …. coming?- inquired the younger, as he began to walk towards the entrance of the building, receiving an affirmative nod from Shou, who thought it best to go and maybe talk to Ruki, and have him sure and reassured that he was going to go out with “Yasuno” tonight.

As they walked towards the Gazette's studio, carefree talking of everything and nothing began to take place, like their usual, with the insertion of laughter every now and then, which seem to come out all very natural and sincere from Hiroto, as for Shou, all that came out of his mouth, he knew, was all very much veered to keep any suspicion away from his and Gackt's relationship, which make his laughter louder, his stories more bizarre, and his conscience incredibly heavy, guilty and all the bad connotations he couldn't come up wit at the moment.

Once arrived, Hiroto quickly directed himself to the familiar large glass window, and swiftly waved inside in the precise direction of the bassist, who so happened to be facing said window. Kai and Aoi weren't present, and from their leisured postures, Ruki writing stuff on a piece of paper, while sitting on the couch, and Urha and Reita standing int the middle of the room, Shou could deduce that they had as well finished practice for some time now. Excusing himself from Uruha with whom he seemed to be having quite the lively discussion, the bassist then almost dashed out of the door to meet Hiroto's incredibly wide grin, and give Shou a rather visible taste of what the unrestrained passion between two very horny man could look like from the outside, as they ferociously began to make out in front of him

It was very endearing to see them so into each other, and he was very happy for his friend, but the fact that he could have been doing the same thing with the person he was falling for, but knew he wouldn't be allowed to, made the otherwise rather hot scene, incredibly unbearable to watch. Thus, nodding in their general direction, he excused himself, entered the room, and dropped on the couch next to Ruki.

-So? ...- began Ruki, his posture unmoving, as he kept staring at his paper, while scribbling what seemed like lyrics, and occasionally glancing at the only other man remained in the room -... want me to take you home? … one sentence and we can go ...- declared Ruki, still not turning towards Shou, who had the feeling of having interrupted something, but wasn't too sure about it -we'll have to take Uruha home first though, but- tried to continue Ruki, whom however Shou nonchalantly interrupted

-No … need to go get stuff for my date with Yasuno tonight ...- Shou carefully intervened -... remember? ...- he then added, sounding as genuine as possible

-Well then we can all go together ...- readily replied Ruki, whose hand seemed to be applying more pressure than what is was before, indicating clear nervousness about something, what, once again, Shou was completely clueless about

-No I'll be fine, I have to go places I don't even have a clue yet, it will be faster by myself and without a car ...- calmly explained Shou, as he observed Ruki carefully covering the pen he was using with its cap, place the paper on a side table, and the pen on it, remove his glasses, and turn towards him, with an extremely intense expression

-So you are not coming with us ...- inquired the shorter vocalist, looking straight into Shou's eyes, who reciprocated the stare with a quick pair of raised eyebrows

-No … - slowly and curiously dragged out Shou, slightly tilting his head to the side gazing at his cousin

-Are you sure? Because I don't want to hear it when you 'll get home complaining about having to carry all the stuff you'll buy ...- insisted Ruki in a quite natural voice, though his expression reflected what seemed to be a bit of desperation. Obviously enough, Ruki wanted him to join him and … ah, so that's what he was interrupting …

-Yes, extremely positive!- joyfully exclaimed Shou, looking up at Uruha, who was now leanign against the whole, with one foot folded on it, his arms folded on his chest and his head lowered -... you seem busy anyways ...- he then added, amsilign back at Ruki

-How so?I am not busy, in fact I am totally free ...- quickly chirped Ruki, with a quick emotionless laughter at the end of his sentence

-Great … - suddenly spoke Uruha, raising his head towards them -... so won't mind spending sometime with me then, ne?- he proposed. The sentence had definitely sounded completely devoid of any ill-intentions, and just by knowing the character of the guitarist, Shou knew that such things as ill-intentions, weren't really possible. Yet, as he looked at Uruha's expression, the determination, and almost angered features in stating his observation, the taller vocalist could almost understand Ruki's nervousness about the whole situation. He could almost understand why Ruki was looking at him now completely wide-eyed, practically beginning him at some second ago, and now silently threatening him, all in the arc of a minute

-Ano … maybe … as … I think about it, I- hesitantly began Shou, whose expression was still fixed on Ruki's menacing one, and he had tried to free his self from the expression gripping technique that Ruki was currently using on him, even though he knew he wouldn't have been able to, in the past, he never had, when they were still just kids, Ruki would use said technique a lot, to scare the hell out of him with the silent promise of making him go though hell if he didn't do whatever the smaller vocalist was asking him for. Yet this time, he was interrupted by Uruha, whom, as he nonchalantly switched legs on the wall he was still leaning, while gracefully flicking his hair away from his face, calmly stated

-Do not worry about it Shou ...- reassured Uruha -... he is obviously not wanting to spend time with me, but he really as no choice at the moment ….- he pointed out -... so go wherever you need to go, he'll be fine - he concluded, at which sentence, Ruki finally lost it, and swiftly snapping his head in Uruha's direction, he decided it time to face his “problem”

-I am being as nice as too offer you a ride home, and this is what I get from you?! - angrily exclaimed the singer -.... I don't like being forced into doing what I don't want so for all I- he tried to continue, but was abruptly interrupted by Uruha, who was now looking dead straight into the vocalist eyes

-for all you know what? - interjected Uruha with a challenging tone -... I am not taking the train home Takanori, and have no intention of spending an afternoon by myself when we both have free time, it is as simple as that - paused the guitarist for a second -... you are acting like I would suddenly rape you or something, please, do not set me on a lower level than what you already do - he then concluded, as they both remained quiet, staring at each other for another minute or so, after which Ruki broke the eye contact

-Do as you please … - mumbled Ruki - … if you try to touch me in appropriate ways I swear, I'll scream so loud, the pope will hear me all the way from the Vatican, and I will scream in such a way that he will feel compelled to make it in such a way for the doors to heaven to be close to you the day you die - threatened the short vocalist, making Shou perform a rather nervous laughter, as he observe the situation escalate rather quickly between the two, and patiently waiting for his cue to leave them both be, and get the hell out of there

-Marvellous ...- stated Uruha in a sarcastic joyful tone -... that means that I would get to meet you in Hell afterall, uh? … isn't that great?- he concluded, as he received a pointed glare from the vocalist

-I'll kick you so heard, I'll make sure you'll be denied with the privilege of procreating ...- hissed Ruki, while still keeping his vexed gaze rather glued on the taller, who leaned off the wall and began to calmly direct himself in direction of the shorter

-I wouldn't need that anyway, if I were to be with you, is not that two guys can really do anything about that now can they? ...- readily replied Uruha, as he took step after step closer to the vocalist, whose expression added an ulterior shade of irritation, at every new step that the taller took in his direction

-I'll hurt you Kouyou, really bad, I swear! - loudly exlaimed Ruki, which was a good cue for Shou to pick up and leave, but somehow, he found himself not been able to get up the couch, wheareas he onl slid all the way to the opposite side of it, as he observed Uruha land over his cousin, both hand bye both sides of Ruki on the back of the couch, where the vocalist was now strongly pressing himself against

-Well how nice of you … I get warned about being hurt …. this time I'll be ready uh? ….- almost whispered the guitarist, who basically speaking on top of the shorter's face -... though I think I already built an antibody against your venom, so you'll have to try harder ...-

-I swear I'll- newly tried to menace Ruki, whose breathing pace had visibly increased, as his eyes kept fixed with Uruha's, whom newly interjected him

-try it Takanori- lowly hissed Uruha, as he got even closer, to a point where he was practically talking on the shorter's lips, and seconds after he had made his invitation, Ruki roughly and quickly wrapped his arms around the guitarist neck, and practically slammed their lips together, as they began to savagely devour each other, and now that, was definitely is cue, quickly thought Shou as he swiftly looked away, while getting off the couch and directing himself to exit of the room

-Don't wait for me up, I'll probably spend the night ...- he quickly yelled, as he walked out of said room, without looking back, not wanting to know, just how far laid on the couch the two might have been on the couch at the moment, even though he knew that the shorter vocalist had a high probability of not having herd him at all. Oh well, he'd text him later, he needed to get laid anyways, which Shou wasn't sure it was going to exactly happen in the middle of the PS company studio building, but the fact that it would have been Uruha, instead of some random guy, made him fell somewhat better, and bitter at the same time, because at the end of the day, even if they had been in got caught having sex in the studio, it might have been maybe embarrassing, but nobody would have said anything, given that they are both part of the freaking PS company; and Shou just couldn't get over that.

He couldn't get over the fact that he had to lie his ass out completely and constantly, that he was now going to direct himself towards Hizaki's house, where he would receive a complete make over, in order to look like a girl, more than what he didn't already, just so that hey could freely walk around town looking like regular couple, maybe walking hand in hands even. He hated that, he really did. Yet, if he truly meant he would have been allowed to publicly display his affection towards the elder singer, even if for only just a day, he found himself truly not minding as much, as he finally found himself in front of the guitarist house, after having paid the taxi he took to get there

-Well well well, I was impatiently waiting for you … do come in Shou-kun ...- stated Hizaki, at which Shou politely bowed and made himself inside the room, blushing in the slightest, finally realizing that he was indeed standing in front of Versailles guitarist -... can I serve you any tea? Cookies? - politely asked Kazuki, as he gracefully walked in side the room, followed by a rather shy acting Shou

-N-no thank you ...- politely refused Shou, in a rather nervous manner -... we are going to go out for dinner as well, I suppose … so I ...- quickly tried to justify, receiving a very affectionate smile from the elder blond

-So you don't want to ruin your appetite, quite understandable ...- stated the guitarist, suddenly stopping right under the light of the living-room, and reaching up for Shou's chin, he moved his face side to side -... you are quite beautiful indeed ...- he then serenely observed, with another endearing smile -... which is going to make my job so easy today, but lets have fun while doing it okay? - he then winked at the younger blond, who merely nodded, while smiling and blushing at the same time

-Yoroshiku onegai shimasu ...- politely replied Shou, newly nodding his head in a politely manner

-Hai, ha~i ...- chanted Kazuki, taking the younger by his hands, and dragging him all the way to his majestic bathroom -... Takamasa, well, Miyavi is not here at the moment, but he'll be back soon ...- informed the guitarist, as Shou welcomed the sight of the porcelain white bathroom, in the middle of which a chair had already been placed -...place do sit ..- informed Hizaki, at which polite request Shou immediately complied -... I promise, when I finish with you today … the tabloids, will probably write article about hoe Gackt was seen in the company of some foreign breathtaking model ...- chuckled the elder -... and he won't be able to take his eye off you, I promise- he then whispered, lowering himsef behind the vocalist, as they both observed their reflections in the mirrors

-Thank you very much … Hizaki-san - gratefully thanked Shou, whom really didn't know what else to say

-Oh don't even mention it ...- serenely replied Hizaki, as he began to mix different color of foundation on a little plate, as if he was getting ready to paint on the yougner's face -... I also went out shopping for clothes, and wigs and other stuff … so after make up, id make over time ...- explained the guitarist, at witch Shou couldn't help but react with a little twitch of his eye. Of course, he had known that he had to go through the whole “transformation” but hearing it from someone else mouth, made it all much more real, and made him all the more nervous about the whole deal

-I .. truly appreciate all you are doing for me, Hizaki-san ...- politely spoke Shou, as his face finally been put in place, by the gentle hand of the guitarist, who was now holding him by the chin, and silently smiled back at him. Silent they remained for a good while, as Hizaki continued work his magic on him, until he clearly hear the front door open, and a rather familiar voice shouting “Tadaima modorimashita Hizaki-sama!” at which words the guitarist, bit his lips, while excitedly smiling, and pausing

-... do excuse me for a second, I'll be right back ...- cheerfully apologized the guitarist, who was obviously looking rather excited to go and welcome, whom could have been non other than Miyavi -... your prince would be out there with him as well, but do not fret, he shall only be allowed to see you, when the whole thing is finished - announced the guitarist, politely bowing his head, and disappearing behind the now closed door of his bathroom, leaving Shou to amazingly gawk at his almost completely done make up, wondering how much of the girl he wad now seeing in his reflection was make up, and how much not, as he impatiently began to tap his foot to the floor, after having heard a distinctive voice, which could indeed pertain to none other than Gackt, and that mere fact, made him want to be done already, for as of the moment, there was nothing else he wanted more than spending the entire day in the elder singer's arms if nothing at all, and as he realized just how much he'd missed him already; he wondered just how had he made it so far without going crazy in the waiting process so far.

Chapter 12 part 2

What what what? She is really going to finish this story? Seriously? No way!!

Lol … m(_ _ )m I apologize to all the people that had been indeed waiting for this to go on! I finally have some free time on my hands and as I have previously stated I am planning to get this over with! So I may not be so explains in A/Ns but I'll try to get to the end of this as soon as possible … like very soon. Thank you for all of those who still feels like reading this story of mine, and sorry for the never ending wait!!

Much Love -LnK♥(~_^ )/-