HOUSE OF SIN - The Diary of Uke Yutaka : CHAPTER 15 PART 2

[luna_no_koibito]

Title: HOUSE OF SIN - The Diary of Uke Yutaka
Chapters: 15.2/21
Author: luna_no_koibito
Genre: Human drama, romance, war, angst.
Warnings:  men/men relationship, cursing, sex, violence, incest.
Rating: from PG -15 to NC-17 (Depending on chapter)
Pairing: Revealing this might spoil the story just yet ... suggest looking at the character list (^_^)!
Bands: the GazettE, Dir En Grey, X-Japan, Nightmare, An Cafe', Alice Nine, Kra, SuG.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, and don't wish I did because I'd be sorry for what could befall them （・＿・；）！
Summary:
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Made by lovely_carrion

CHAPTER 15 PART 1

Not having been able to sleep properly was a given for him. However, the fact that he had awakened on the floor at the corner of a room that he still hadn't decided whether he wanted or not, was most likely the reason why Yutaka felt absolutely and completely awful. Bones which usually didn't hurt were terribly aching, added to his usual headache, and the uncomfortable feeling of not having slept in years. Then again, he hadn't truly meant to sleep there in the first place, in fact he merely fell asleep, through all the thinking over thinking he had done the entire evening. Thoughts about questions, to which he still didn't have an answer, and which made him conclude along his though processes, that he needed to go and talk to father Byou, this time though, it would have been once and for all. He would have made it his last visit because he felt quite demoralized, and in all honesty, he was also quite tired, for he wasn't scared of the fact that something bad could happen, and he didn't fear being yelled at, he was simply tired of what exactly he couldn't quite tell, and that just drove him deeper into frustration.

And such a pity would it have been, for no matter how much he was beginning to feel towards some people in the house, no matter how much he felt for Akira, and even though he had to unfortunately brake quite a few promises he had made, he just wouldn't have been able to keep staying in that house the way he currently felt, which was equal, or something less, than a deadweight. Though, the way he saw things at the moment, it wasn't like anyone would have been affected, or would have accuse him of not having kept his promises anyway, for the situation in the house seemed to be adjusting itself, and Akira had clearly expressed time and time again that he didn't need his help, thus, there really was no point for himself being there anymore; if there had been any to begin with.

One advantage of waking up the way he always did, was that it usually happened when the it was about to dawn. The sun wasn't all the way up yet, and people usually slept at that time, which would have made it less stressful, if not at all, for him to just have left the house and direct himself towards father Byou's chapel. Thus, determined not to waste anytime, he got himself up, and swiftly walked out of the room, still trying though to make no noise as a safety measure, and once outside his eyes welcomed the sight of a man, in whose presence he hadn't been alone in quite some time. Ever since their forced heated night, himself and Takahiro really hadn't had much of a conversation, at least not by themselves, which was what his accelerated heartbeat, was pointing out at the moment.

That such an encounter where to have happened just as he thought he didn't fear anything anymore was rather sarcastic in many ways, and even though he was mentally getting ready for anything to happen, Takahiro quickly blinked at him as well, his expression showing for a fraction of second that he hadn't expected to see him there at all. The blond then visibly stiffened, lowered his face, and looked away, his stance declaring that he had no idea of what he were to do, which was a problem, given that not a single of the apprentice's hurting muscles seemed to want to move either.

-I am sorry ...- suddenly whispered Takahiro keeping his head low, and his hands deep into the pockets of his black pants, as Yutaka wondered whether he truly had just heard an apology from the elder -... I am aware that it may not mean anything at this point in time, or ever at all but … I ...- he then paused, seemingly not knowing what, or how else to keep apologizing

It is alright ... those were probably the words that Takahiro would have wanted to hear, three mere word in reply to the other three words, which probably took a lot of courage to profess as well, yet, it was perhaps expected, and natural, even obvious that such words weren't finding their way out of Yutaka. The apprentice still felt the burn of the humiliation, the silent fear of the person in front of himself, and forgiveness was just not in sight -You … came to tell me this? ...- the brunette managed to coldly speakk, his detached tone catching himself off guard

-I actually … was not here for you ...- lowly replied Takahiro -... this is a chance meet ...- he added

-So … if I were to walk away now … I would not be harassed ...- expressed Yutaka with the same cold tone, as they now looked into each other eyes

-I could go first … if it would make you feel more comfortable ...- readily proposed the elder, his tone devoid of any sort of emotion as his usual, but Takanori could sense in his demeanor that indeed, the other didn't mean any harm -... I am actually about to run late, and- he was about to explain, when a door suddenly opened, making them both turn towards the left, and stare at Kazamasa's head peering out of his room, shockingly staring back at the apprentice, and swiftly sending a concerned glimpse at Takahiro -... I understand I am not in the position to ask for any favors but ...- resumed Takahiro, replacing his gaze on Yutaka, seemingly trying his best to maintain his calm -... but … could I ask of you ... to please not speak of this to anyone...- he finally inquired, a few second later bowing, as if to accentuate his resolve

Even though Yutaka was slightly taken aback by the other's bowing, not expecting such a humble gesture, from the man he almost considered the reincarnation of the devil, he instinctively turned once more towards Kazamasa, who looked at him with hopeful eyes, which were completely different from the scared gaze he though he would have met, which once again, confirmed the fact that there had been something he hadn't caught on all this time -... Just because Kazamasa … seems to want so … I will ...- Yutaka then replied, now staring at Kazmasa's radiant expression, who thankfully bowed at him

-Thank you ...- whispered Takahiro, who speed walked past the apprentice, and disappeared behind the closed doors of Kazamasa's room, under Yutaka's now rather apathetic expression. Was Kazamsa also a part of the conspiracy against him? Was the only person he trusted in this house turning out to be something else he had no idea of? His head was beginning to hurt once more, and in order not to encounter anyone else, or find out more truths he wasn't ready to face at the moment, such as perhaps finding out that Akira was truly a woman, which was quite unlikely, but still fair game in this particular mansion, he dashed down the stairs towards the first floor, quickly walked out the back window-door in the living room, and rapidly crossed the garden's middle path at the end of which was father Byou's chapel. It was still too early and most likely father Byou himself was still at sleep, but he didn't care, he would have sat in the church and just wait for him to appear, churches always gave him some sort of security, so it was alright

As he opened the door of the small religious structure, he entered and gently closed it, and took a few step forward, just to halt as he saw father Byou, now staring in his direction, standing in front of someone else, who was sitting at the first row of benches on the left, head covered in a hood, and lowered

-Mister Uke … what brings you here so early? … - inquired the priest moving away from the other visitor, and walking towards him

-I can come back at a better time, I apologize ..- quickly apologized Yutaka, bowing and getting ready to turn on his heals, but was stopped by the father's voice

-There is never a wrong time to come into the house of the Lord … Mister Uke- politely smiled the father, extending his hand towards the inside of the church. The apprentice cordially bowed and calmly walked passed the priest, who made sign for him to sit in the front row benches on the right side -how may I help you my child? ...- then inquired, once the apprentice took the offered seat

-Well … - hesitantly began Yutaka in a low tone, turning towards the wooded man still sitting down, with his head lowered seemingly in prayer, but his hands weren't joined -... maybe I should really come in a different time … when we can be alone ...- he lowly expressed in an implying tone, apologetically looking at the priest, who newly smiled while softly smirking

-I can assure you Mister Uke, that there is really nothing you are going to say, which that person will be either upset with, or which … he doesn't know already - kindly smiled the priest, turning towards the hooded guest -... right? - he then inquired and paused, most likely waiting for the man to reply, but the guest remained unmoving and silent -... I think you left this child in the dark for a little to long now do you not think? - he then added, as the hooded man preformed a light agreeing mumble, after which he got up to his feet, turned towards the bemused brunette, and lowered his hood

-D-d-dr … Niikura … - stupefyingly called Yutaka, in a barely audible whisper, gawking at the kindly smiling, and slowly approaching doctor as if he were looking at a ghost

-Good morning Yutaka ...- benignly greeted the doctor, stopping besides father Byou -... Your expression tells me that you perhaps though you would never see me again, I am sorry, in fact I have actually been here since Thursday ...- excused the doctor, keeping his soft tone, and managing to perform a small grin, which looked more apologetic than serene, tiny gesture which Yutaka was to shocked to acknowledge -... knowing you ... you are probably confused, have a lot of questions, which I am here to- calmly resumed the doctor, but was abruptly interrupted by Yutaka, whom taking over by a sudden wave of uncontainable wrath stood to his feet and interrupted the doctor

-You are sorry? ...- sarcastically smirked Yutaka, whose ear didn't seem to have heard anything past the I am sorry, previously pronounced by the doctor, as he feverishly tried to make sense out of the fact that the doctor had been in the house for more than four days, and was acting so aloof; so detached. Acting like he was coming to conclude some sort of game he had been playing and left on hold -... To hell with that! How dare you all stand there in front of me smiling and looking at me like I am the own who has a problem?! ... - furiously began to scream the apprentice -... standing there looking like the almighty god about to tell me that what has been happening was not a big deal, looking like I had not just spent the must traumatizing weeks of my life?! How dare you … - angrily screamed Yutaka, directly staring at a now expressionless Dr. Niikura, as his aggravated tears began to flow down his reddened cheeks - How dare you come back smiling at me, acting … acting like a mere smile could solve anything … how dare ...- he concluded, his voice progressively becoming a whisper, as he dropped back to his bench silently crying to himself, feeling like the most pathetic human being, suddenly feeling like the world had been a place created to make fun of him, poor little orphan, who had nothing to his name, and apparently nobody he could trust either.

-I do not believe he does … - cautiously began father Byou glimpsing at the empty expression on Dr. Niikura's face - ... but as for myself, I do owe you my most sincere apologies Mister Uke, I- tactfully tried to express father Byou, but was abruptly interrupted by a still rather shaken Yutaka, whom newly raised his voice, while vexatiously widening his eyes in direction o f the holy authoritative figure

-Tsk! He does not owe me an apology you say? - spat Yutaka in cynical anger, keeping his gaze fixed on the priest, and deciding that not looking towards the doctor was the best solution for the moment, in order to avoid him getting any angrier, or crying any harder

-Please allow me to explain … at least part of it - politely requested father Byou -what I am about to say may stir more rage in you but … I beg of you, if you may … to listen until the end of it … - he requested looking at a head shaking Yutaka, whom had initially come to inquire what he was probably going to hear, but at the moment, didn't feel like knowing anymore

-Listen to what?! Are you going to give me another list? A mysterious puzzle constructed by some old ancestor of this dwelling, you can keep it … the way I stand at the moment, I do not believe a single thing that comes out of any of your mouths, his in particular ...- he specified glimpsing at Dr. Niikura -Look at me, Look at me! I sound and look crazy, oh this is so aggravating, and to think that I came myself to ask you what you probably want to tell me … but I do not trust you right now, not a single bit! I had enough, I am thr- Yutaka exasperatedly began to yell, as he got up ready to leave while sarcastically laughing, in such an uncharacteristic manner that scared himself, as well as the priest, whom was staring at him in concern, differently from Dr. Niikura, who simply kept looking at him impassively, and whom suddenly interrupted the brunette's verbal rampage

-I am perfectly alright … with you not wanting to believe any of what I say, such as not believing that there had been a purpose for all of this … - plainly began Dr. Niikura, positioning his firm gaze on Yutaka - … but there is, and all I ask is for you to listen, for knowing you, it would eat you up to not have heard this, to not know something, be it truth or falsity - calmly pointed the doctor - so … if you want to look at it professionally, this is still evidence, and you just cannot walk away from, or ignore it and after this ... you will be free to leave the house - concluded the doctor, as Yutaka remained unmoving and silent on his spot, backing the two elders, hating the fact that he had allowed such a person to get to indeed know him as well

-Then I shall begin … - resumed the priest, taking the younger's silent as a sign to proceed -... I, whom by now I am sure you might have heard Akira and Takanori mention, am really Takuya Hayashi, their uncle and Kouyou, and Yoshiki are my elder brothers. The three of us have been friends with Kaoru since even before I knew how to walk … we have always been together … he is like a brother to us, and something more to Kouyou in particular, but I shall let him explain that bit of the story...- he paused, receiving a slow absent nod from the doctor in agreement, whose head was slightly lowered, with his arms folded in his arms -... the Hayashi family that was presented to you, was an unfortunate conglomerate of senseless mistakes and deplorably made decisions, made by each member in this family, nobody except, we are well aware this ...- paused the priest his expression looking slightly pained -... we are ashamed, to have been able to bring down such an illustrious and family, by our actions, the Hayashi was not only a well known military power, but they were advocate of justice, humble, generous … father, and those preceding them had been all great men, and realizing that, maybe just a bit too late, we tried to find a way to bring everything back to the way it was meant to be ...- heavily sighed the priest, shifting on his weight, as he kept looking in Yutaka's direction, but didn't really seem to be looking at the apprentice, whom had turned half way towards the priest -... thus we all agreed that things had started going wrong ever since Namie, Lady Hayashi, began to have her issues, but what we could not understand was … what caused it … because that was not like her at all. Lady Hayashi was probably one of the most clever, kind and considerate people I ever met, a splendid wife, a commendable sister-in-law … an outstanding mother … then, out of the blue twenty years ago she suddenly gone crazy … and all we wanted, was to know why in order to help her first, and also mend everything, working together to bring back the name of our family to what it used to be ...-

-So what has any of that to do with me ...- coldly blurted out Yutaka, whom understood this too be a rather delicate moment for the priest, thus also understood his coldness to be out of place, but the brunette had simply lost control over himself, which however the priest didn't seem to mind, as he paused for a second, and resumed

-Around the same time, something happened between Kaoru, and Kouyou, which made Kaoru think that what had happened to us had been because of what he had done to Kouyou. However, given that Kouyou had disappeared for a while, me and Yoshiki only convinced him that the problem had always relied with Namie, thus, he then offered to help us find mental physicians who could figure out what the issue was ...- continued the priest, taking a few step forward, to lean on the head rest of the front row benches in front of himself, as if the memories of their past suddenly began to heavy to bear -... but all of them were failures, one after the other … and by the time we realized that we had been placing too much emphasize on Namie, and neglected the children completely, it was obviously too late until. There seemed to be some odd behaviors in each of them, and particularly in Kazamasa, but as I said ... we realized all of this things too late, while in the meantime adding tons of other deplorable mistakes, very grave ones at those dealing with lives, and of which I am still too ashamed too speak of ...- painfully declared father Byou, now simply staring in front of himself -... finally … we basically gave up, or so I thought. With the passing of time, Kaoru would keep bringing psychiatrist along in his journeys towards our house, given that he had become our family medical doctor, he would come as often as he could … - resumed the priest -... however, this time, this physician served to the purpose of entertaining them, the children, whom times and times again showed themselves to be exceptionally smart in the wring ways, and needed something to distracted them, and keep them away from going any further in their wrong habits. This doctors never lasted more than a week, and Kaoru would always made sure to pay them off well, even though he had never brought them in believing they could do anything … all except from you- he then paused, turning his head towards Yutaka, as if remembering that the brunette was indeed in the house

-Who manged to be the dumbest out of all ...- cynically whispred the Yutaka, still controled by his previous streak of anger, refusiong to want to get anything good out of any of wha thte priest was trying to tell him, whom however, kept his calm showing not once a sign of being offeneed in any way as he resumed

-No Mr. Uke … no you had not ...- reassured the priest, visibly suppressing his need to smile - … not for Kaoru you were not, but you see … he had brought you along truly thinking that you would have been able to help us, and also wanting you to learn something as well … but never told me anything of his intention … making me believe that you were just one like all the others, until I started seeing things change among us … until he clearly explained me everything now, because believe it or not, I was left in the dark, and mislead just as much as you were - paused the priest, this time not being able to help a very warm and comforting smile -... you see Mister Uke … most of the things I have told you so far, such as the list of seven deadly sins was all part of their fun games … said list in particular was just something me and Kazamasa used to play with when he was a teen. We had associated each of his brothers with a sin, and discussed on ways they could have maybe be saved, with your limited knowledge about our family, it would not have been possible for you to have started figuring out who was who … it was an impossible task from the start, but at the point in time in which we gave you the paper, we were hoping you would maybe be able to perform your miracle on the only obvious person that list of sins indicated, because by then ... you had already manged to somehow successfully help everyone else - serenely professed the father

-Please stop making me look like a Messiah … - dejectedly smirked Yutaka, looking away from the priest -... for as far as I can recall I have not helped not a single soul ...-

-There are ways and ways to help people Mr. Uke, just because you were not aware of it, does not mean you did not. These children, they gave you probably an even worse treatment than what they would have with all the other people, and withstanding it all, you stayed, because you trusted Kaoru ...- explained father Byou - … those children have never been faced with anyone like you before, you, who was obviously scared beyond the limits of regular fear, whom I am sure would have ran away plenty a time … but did not … Kazamasa never said it but I could tell he was impressed by such behavior, Kazuhiro was inspired, Takanori touched in different ways, Takahiro might not seem so but he was as well, such as Takeru … you all impacted them in different ways, without knowing it, but you did, and because of this … I will be endlessly grateful to you- paused the priest, bowing at a still silent, and now slightly more relaxed Yutaka, whom was still rather uncertain of anything he was hearing, but somehow found it hard not want to believe in all of it -... which is why, when we gave you the paper, we though you would have started form the only one, we still do not know what to do with, the obvious one, the one you did not need to know history about to identify ...- resumed the priest

-... Akira ...- whispered Yutaka, receiving a nod from the priest -... so … what you are trying to tell me is that … I so happened to be of help? That … right from the start, even though I had come here with such purpose anyways, that even though everyone though of me as another toy, that even though I had spent years and years studying books, which are supposed to be my primary guide … you are telling me that all my knowledge was useless, and that my subconsciousness was what resolved matters? ...- tried to ask Yutaka, trying his best to keep his irritation in check, while staring at a mortified looking father Byou, whom seemed not to know what else to say at that point - … well do forgive me if I am not flattered by such an “exciting revelation”, and you cannot possibly expect me to feel so either, since what you are telling me right now, is that all my time spent studying, all my sacrifices lead to nothing, that nothing is going the way it is sup- kept on complaining Yutaka, his voice slowly raising again, until Dr. Niikura suddenly interrupted him

-Life does not always goes as we plan it Yutaka ...- he firmly began, now rigidly looking at Yutaka, like a father would have with his son -... which was exactly what I had wanted you to learn form all of this - he professed resignedly sighing, while relaxing his face a little, talking towards the apprentice, whom still refused to look at him, but whom could feel himself relax as well, since he had suddenly stiffened after hearing such a stern tone form the doctor for the first time ever -... in fact, let me see if I am capable of letting you hate me a little more ...- sarcastically smirked the doctor, causing the priest to worryingly glimpse at him, and Yutaka to slowly shift the weight of his body, on his other foot-... I had come here with the precise intent to make amends for that issue I had cause with Kouyou as Takuya has stated, my wishful thinking would like to obtain forgiveness, but the way things have been allowed to go on … I will gladly take anything I can get ...- he paused, taking a quick look at Yutaka's hardened expression -... for I doubt I will even get him to listen to me ...-

-You got me listening, I doubt you will have any problems with him, if he cared about you more than what I do ...- cynically blurted out Yutaka, whom really hadn't mean to sound as spiteful, especially after having declared something like that, which he hadn't intended to reveal as well, but strangely enough, it felt good anyways; not being in control of one's own emotions wasn't as bad at time

-Then hopefully, that will be what will happen … but let me continue- kindly replied Kaoru-... when I was around your age, maybe a bit younger, I have obviously been a medical apprentice as well, but differently from you, because of the nature of what I studied, I already practiced under the Hayashi family firm. I was young and believed myself to be the luckiest man alive, because in my eyes, I had everything, a future, a dream, money was coming in, and love … - he paused, shifting his weight, as he softly smiled to a recurrent memory -... to be more precise, I was madly in love with my best friend, on of the most brilliant young doctors of the time … who is now an eccentric brunette, traveling the world ... - he stopped, turning towards Yutaka, whom was now looking in his direction. The doctor then kindly smiled at him, whom stood staring back at him bothered, not a bit by the fact that the doctor had just admitted to have been in love with another man, which if he had though about it, he was more or less in the same situation, but by the fact that he couldn't understand how the elder could keep so calm and happy looking even as explaining something, which they both already knew wasn't going to have a happy-ending. Was Dr. Niikura even capable of suffering; was he human? -... he loved me in the same way I am sure, though I think I loved him more ...- he lightly smirked -...we never were able to agree on such a point, but, getting back on point, he was a medical prodigy, just like Takanori, if not even better … and we had planned our lives together … we had decided that we would have worked hard, and found the way to change genital organs in such a way that same gender couples could procreate … because we wanted children of our own, and the medical basis were there ...- he explained

-Then … what happened? ..- hesitantly asked Yutaka, finally sounding more like himself, considerate, as he tried to think, what on earth could have gone wrong

-The day we decided to leave London, and start our new life together leaving everyone else unaware, Yoshiki had something urgent to tell me ...- Kaoru then paused, his expression momentarily hardened at the thought of the memory -... my mother .. she had an unknown disease, at the time, and doctors were concentrating on another type of unknown disease, so she was just left to her faith, and it almost looked like she could have died at any time, which I will shamefully admit here to you ... I had honestly considered her already dead in my mind ...- he lowly confessed - … but Yoshiki told me he had found a Lord whom would have sponsored my researches for a cure of my mother's disease, for seemingly, his wife had the same symptoms, with doctors overseas in Ireland, whom were working on the same case ...- Kaoru newly paused, clenching his fingers, while sadly smiling -... my mother was still so young for her age, and feeling guilty for having even though of her dead, when she in fact was not … I could not find it in my heart to leave her to die when I was just offered the means to try and save her … however doing so … meant that we, I and Kouyou would not have had time to work on the gender modification project, at least not in time for him to be able to procreate if we ever had succeeded, since after a certain age it is not even possible to do so for a regular woman ...- he expressed in a mortified manner

-So ...you ...- whispered Yutaka, traces of sorrow audible in his voice, finally connecting the pieces

-It was a point in my life where I practically lived for whatever Kouyou said, anything I thought was with him as a final aim, and I knew it was the same for him … always thinking of me over himself in the end, even to the point of attributing me discoveries that he had indeed made himself, which always gut me annoyed, I was a rather harsh young man at the time, … but he did not care, simply smiled at me all the time. Then finally, I had finally been able to get him to wish something for himself, and he was so eager to start working on this together, and I knew that if I had ordered him to work with someone else he would have never … he would have newly sacrificed himself and followed me, for something that I wanted to do for myself … I did not want him to waste his life for me. The way things were, he was such a brilliant physician he would have been successful even without me … but ...- he then dejectedly smirked, pausing for a second or two -... he loved me so much ...just like I did … and that had been my mistake, not taking that little aspect in account as a reason for catastrophe over catastrophe to occur ...- he professed in sad cynical tone - … so on that day ... we … left to spend what was supposed to be the first night of our life together, a romantic evening in which ... I still ended up making love to him like we had planned ... thinking that that was the least and last thing I could have done for him … which, as I then thought back through it, had been maybe the biggest mistake … - he newly stopped, calmly breathing out -... waking up in an empty bed, after what had also been your first time, would not be pleasant to anybody … - he whispered in a cynical tone -... while I was hurrying up to get my parents to catch a ship towards Ireland … and there you have it, not so high in your eyes anymore … am I Yutaka? … - finally concluded the doctor, at which Yutaka had no idea how to answer, not because he though any lesser of the doctor, which surprisingly was quite the opposite, but because he really had no idea what to say to such a story -... and it is alright, never considered myself as high as everyone credit me with. The fact than I then discovered the cure for said disease, that because of that I have made in history as a great doctor,a nd have the chair in the ministry of doctor … is all thanks to Kouyou anyways … there was no way I was not going to find the cure, after having sacrificed so much - he then added, as he began to walk, down the aisle, and stopped right be Yutaka, whose head was still lowered

-What if … what if he will not listen? ...- sadly inquired the younger, seeing as the most likely outcome after such a long absence. If it had been him, if he had been Kouyou he probably would want him dead by now, but that aside, knowing just how much he wanted to be listened by Akira, he somehow felt weirdly closed to the doctor at the moment

-Well … I have tried through letters, and and tried to personally meet him as well, and I could have told his brothers to tel him, but I needed to do this in person … so … I will force him to ...- he simply declared, newly smiling at a blinking Yutaka -... he can be temperamental, so I will get hit, badly I presume … but I will not leave until he has listened to the end … the fact that I still love him, is enough of a punishment, so whatever he will say, cannot be more painful - he explained, answering Yutaka's previous doubt about the elder being a painless being -... but as you Yutaka … you are free to do as will from now on, you place in London is there waiting for you as I had stated, I would have given it to you anyways but of one thing you can be sure ...- he then paused, placing both his hands on the younger's shoulder, and kindly gazing at him -... even though life does not always go like we want it, even though things here did not happen the way you had planned them, if you are here, is because you wanted to be … - he confidently stated

-I … wanted ? … - absently repeated Yutaka, whom had never even though of that at all

-You made a choice to want to help, you decided to trust me, you made the choice, and even from now on, it is all up to you ...- calmly explained the doctor - … you can choose to just leave, for you have helped enough, and go to London continuing what you had initially come here for, or … stay if you think you feel like you could be concerned with helping the person afflicted with “wrath” ...- expressed the elder, lightly smirking at the the referral to Akira -... it is your life, your choice, and whatever you choose, if you still will want, I will always be by your side … even when you cannot see me, I am always there - he concluded, smiling for a last time, and turning away towards the church's main door -... if I wait any longer, he will either find out I am here and escape … or have the sudden whim to want to leave, so I better go now … I cannot wait any longer anyways, I am so nervous my stomach is eating itself from the inside ...- he kept talking, as he walked down the aisle, and finally disappeared behind the main doors

-Once again I apologize ...- stated father Byou, as they were no left by themselves, while Yutaka, lightly smiled, and walking towards the first bench, he sighed and dropped himself -... so … will you stay? - he then inquired walking towards the younger

-I do not know … honestly I am even more exhausted at the moment, though I do know one thing ...- he then declared, dropping his head backwards, and staring at the ceiling

-Which is ...- calmly inquired father Takuya, at which Yutaka sighed once more, and then calmly replied

-... I really do not like braking promises-

CHAPTER 15 PART 3

A/N: Well another long Chapter ne?

So … next it is obviously the Kaoru x Kouyou face-off, which I am working on at the moment. Hope you enjoyed it, and I hope you are still looking forward to the next part, and to the rest of the story … if I were Kai … I'd obviously stay … Thanks as always~!

Much Love -LnK♥(~_^ )/-