Right now feels an awful lot like starting over. I moved out of the dorms the other day, with mixed feelings. Part of me says I need to be away from school for an extended period, the other part knows that summer at home won't be a whole lot better. I read the anniversary card that Cait gave me for the first time in probably three months, and ( Read more... )

Why do bad things keep happening? Why is this semester so horrible ( Read more... )

Yesterday night I went home for my godfather's party, held in a banquet hall. He's got about a year left to live, and he has a walker now from the ALS. I never knew him all that well, nor did he know me, but he's a close friend of my dad's. The purpose of the night was to raise some money for him, and above all else get people together and laugh. ( Read more... )

There's something wonderful about hitting a lousy fucking feeling in your day, hopping in the car, and driving down the highway with Magical Mystery Tour on full volume, and with the windows down. The open road is more inviting these days.

This is shaking a lot of ugly out of me. I'm saying things that I know I shouldn't be saying, and that I know don't help any of this situation or how I look, but I'm finding it hard to control how I think or feel or what I say lately. I'll have these little brief points where I manage to forget what's wrong, and then things fall apart again. This ( Read more... )

I'm going to try to keep this simple, which is far from what the last week has been ( Read more... )

Think fast, talk slow.

-Robert Maguire

Today at work two guys were standing around talking about how great the Jackass and American Pie movies are. I was trying to keep my head down, but someone had to ask me if I'd seen them, which led to me saying no, which led to them asking why, which led to me having to explain why I don't like those movies, which made me a lesser man than them. ( Read more... )

I'm hopin' this ain't no heart attack.

Here I am, past 4AM on a Sunday night (or Monday morning), procrastinating sleep. But I haven't written anything in a while, and there's quite a bit that I have to say. Here it goes ( Read more... )