so while i was on myspace i saw sumthin on carlys bout her lj. it really got me thinkin n i like to write my thoughts to help me feel better n rite now would be a good time to. im in michigan with nick visitin his mom n his 2 bros. i was havin a good weekend til jus a lil bit ago. nick told me that i was lame or sumthin to that effect b4 i met him ( Read more... )

in my spare time wen i have nuthin to do i like to think. i always think about my friends. i've realized that alot of ppl im friends w/need some kind of help. in one way or another. but who doesn't these days? im always there to help a friend. i think its wut i was put on this earth to do. this is why i am writing this ( Read more... )

long time no update...umm. felt like updatin since im feelin down. nuthin much has been goin on. besides goin to skewl n work. then occasionally partyin it up a lil. been smokin alot lately. last friday got real drunk n passed out n gota bubble bath from kt n ash at this party. deff not a good nite. puked alot from wut i do remember. which isn't ( Read more... )

i cant believe im updatin since i neva do ne more. but since i havn't in a while n i have things on my mind ill write. jeni n kt both think im mad at them. i suppose someone else does too. i duno y they'd think that. jeni thinks im ignorin her. but its jus im always busy n wen she calls im always doin sumthin. work started me workin again. seein ( Read more... )

hmm. im neva really online much ne more. its not a big deal to me much. been bein bad lately. but wuts new. sat was winter formal. deff a good dance n im glad i spent it w/my ashers. got lots of new pix that im in love w/. miss hangin out w/sum ppl but they dont seem to care or call so i guess they dont miss me. mom n me r better i guess. she acted ( Read more... )

bad bad bad day yesterday. called mom bout goin to the movies w/justin n i guess thats wut started to get her mad. my bro got in trouble at skewl. so she was pissed. came in n saw me on the fone n computer n i guess that didn't help. she got even more pissed n started yellin at me. we got in a HUGE FIGHT. my mom was sayin shit like ur neva home n i ( Read more... )

wow havn't updated in a while. nuthin really has been goin on. jus mainly been up at chenga n skewl. work gave me off for the week so i guess this is the time where heather goes n finds another job b/c i only requested off one day, for the first time ever, n they gimme the whole damn week off. i need the money but nooo. so im gona try n get a job w ( Read more... )

i've come to learn that wen i get high i become smarter than i usually am. i think this is proly cuz i think bout so much shit wen im high. i think ive realized that i truly have no friends. im so alone in this world n theres so many ppl out there. im more alone then i've ever been. i cut myself for the 1st time today in so long. i truly thought i ( Read more... )

dont really have the urge to write but i figure i should jus a lil. im outa control. i didn't go to swim team or work at all this week. got a drs excuse wen i went on w/e day i went to the dr. i think tuesday. my depression is worse. i barely eat or sleep ne more. i have like no energy. i dont care bout like ne thing ne more. im so close to ( Read more... )