The past couple of weeks have been kind of a wake up call.... a kick in the ass for lack of better words.

With my mother having a major heart attack, seeing my father's mother and how sick she is,  Hearing how sick my mother's mother is, Losing my job, Hearing about what James is going through... THIS is life.

So this change... IS for the best ( Read more... )

To get to the point, I lost my job today.

Just when I thought things were going good. I finally realized what I was doing wrong in life...... and this happens. I knew what I had to change, and I was willing to put forth the effort to make it all better. "too late" is basically what everyone told me.

...I don't think it's too late. I think of this ( Read more... )

These past couple of days have been an awakening for me ( Read more... )

"You're So Last Summer ( Read more... )

What I learned from the past couple of days ( Read more... )

Love is hard....
Especially when the person you love does not feel the same way.....
It makes you wonder when someone actually will....

Ridiculous me....

"The heart may freeze or it can burn.
The pain will ease if I can learn
There is no future, there is no past.
I live this moment as my last....
There's only us, there's only this....
Forget regret, or life is yours to miss....
No other roads..... no other way....
no day but today....."

*RENT*

Things have been very weird ( Read more... )

Things are not going very well.....

Last Friday my uncle was put into the hospital for overdosing on Depression and anxiety pills......

Today I found out that my grandma is in the hospital, and she is very ill.

I'm currently at my Aunt's house doing an early Christmas dinner.

The icing on the cake....          ......I feel like I am pushing ( Read more... )

Anyone who hasn't seen "RENT" yet... I advise everyone with a hint of a brain to go see it. It's an amazing movie. *sigh* I cried like a little bitch ( Read more... )