Whew...haven't posted in this thing in forever....might as well make use of it while I'm in the mood I guess. I just got this idea...and I went with it, didn't amount to much, but I can always add to it later right.

(*hint*: Think the movie "The Number 23")

You're my number 23.
in everything I do,
everything I see.
I found you at random,
weren't ( Read more... )

Well the break is almost over...3 and a half days left of freedom before it's back to the grind. I really don't get school...like...there really is no point in trying hard if you think about it. As long as you pass, you pass...someone that gets a 95% is still going to pass the same way as someone with a 55% is going to pass...there are no perks, no ( Read more... )

well i havent updated in a while and got nothing better to do...so here it goes ( Read more... )

Atreyu is comming to town for the Taste of Chaos tour...i do not have the money to go, nor will my parents lend me the money to go. I really feel...fucking everything. Mad, sad, angry, depressed...but i guess those mostly come from the same emotion...not good. Money's too tight to lend me the money, especially considering it's christmas...and i ( Read more... )

I feel like i've been living inside my head this weekend. Like the basis of everything ive done has been alone, in this very room...going on inside my very own mind. All by myself. So many thoughts have come and gone, it's insane. I really have no clue what i'm doing anymore. Like I so badly want to be everything he wants, and i can...i have all ( Read more... )

i am so confused...Like, ah i dont even know how to explain it. Like man, i love hanging out with francois, i really do...and yes, i do love what we do...or i guess, how we are? i dont know, well you get the point ((this is my journal, if you dont like what you read...dont read it. kaapeesh?)). but anyways...it's just that, everytime we're ( Read more... )

well i wrote dave an e-mail...bout how shitty things are...it went a lil something like ( this )

Last Christmas
my parents bought me a new set of pencil crayons
to replace my old used up ones.
so once again i had a yellow
one that didnt run brown.
and a brown
one that didnt run purple.

Although I had become accustomed to that purple
the shade, intensity, and hue.
as stupid as it may be
it had a special place inside of me.

Just like my new ( Read more... )

these days i feel like no one thinks i can help them. Everyone used to talk to me bout their shit...nowadays...no one really. i feel really useless, i mean if i cant help the ones i love the most whats the point ( Read more... )

( I'll Miss you forever. I'll miss you always...goodbye is so hard but I'll say it anyways )