I feel that I am lost. destined to die slowly and painfully. In the same respect though I feel that I have nothing left to lose besides my life, but that doesn't bother me so much. It came upon me today when I was thinking... that if I had to do it all over again, but I still couldn't change the outcome I wouldn't. I would choose not to be born ( Read more... )

its crazy how my life goes so insaine ( Read more... )

I just saw his picture. I can't breath. he's so old. I want my dk back. fml

All I want for my birthday is Her.
I know it's not going to happen.
But I know I can't stop loving her, and know I can make her the happiest girl in the world.

Happy Birthday Adrian.

It snowed last night, and I woke up after having a long dream about her. The weird thing is I rarely ever had dreams about Destinee, or anyone really in particular, but she was definetly in it. we were running away from a church cult hand in hand, and even though we were being chased, we were laughing and smiling at eachother. Mostly because we ( Read more... )

its been 5 months.

its been 5 months and I still love her with all my heart

a co-worker was playing country music in our shop, after a while I had to turn on my radio just to drown his music out. I started really liking country, its all i mostly listened to when driving across the country to MO. but it reminds me of her. on top of it most the songs that were playing were about that special girl in their life. I think I ( Read more... )

nobody else will do. I love this girl to the end of the world, and nobody else compares. I guess everyone else will always have to be second best.

I disabled my facebook account. I couldn't handle it anymore. just seeing her status messages kills me inside. I had to do it. I've had a pretty rough week, she actually called me to help me and give me advice. she had to go because "he" was coming home soon and couldn't talk too long and said she would call me friday. I wait all day friday ( Read more... )

It got to me today. I force myself to write on this thing so I have a place to put my feelings. maybe it will be a historical reference to my past, so others will be able to see my inner emotions when I'm gone. It's the stupidest thing too. Destinee is team jacob. that's not the Destinee I know. I know if she wasn't with him she would be going ( Read more... )