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LJ Idol Week 14- The Place That Can Not Be
“Hey baby.
Hey love. Happy Valentines Day.
The same to you, darling. I wish you were here.
Me too, babe, me too. I know we talk every night, but tonight I really want to say something.
Go ahead. I wanted to say how much I miss you. Everyone gets to hold their husbands hand.
Me? I just have to pretend like you would be holding it if you were ( Read more... ) -
LJ Idol Week 11- Run, Don't Walk.
This is me today. Well, yesterday. I took the picture yesterday. But imagine it was today.
In three days, I turn 21. It’s kind of hard to comprehend how I’ve lived to see this day. I’ve had alcohol poisoning, tried to kill myself, and almost been killed. I’ve been beaten, had an eating disorder, and had a life threatening disease. I’ve cut myself, ( Read more... ) -
LJ Idol Week 9- The Better Half.
Earlier this week, I was walking to work and, in doing so, passed a bench that I used to walk to late at night to think in my very first semester of college. Everything that I used to experience from the vantage point of that singular spot was in my mind, and I began to reflect on the girl that I was three years ago ( Read more... ) -
Lj Idol Week 8 Reprobate
I used to love Christmas. Christmas used to be the most fabulous day of the year, complete with gorgeous decorated trees, lights around the house, and cookies made on Christmas Eve for Santa Claus. But, as time passes, I lose my love of Christmas. I lose everything that I once loved about the holiday- the family spirit, the holiday cheer, the ( Read more... ) -
[one twenty four] fuckfuckfuck
I literally just went from shocked, to angry, to having a panic attack, to crying, to numb in a matter of a half hour. A HALF HOUR. I guess the shock shouldn’t be there. I guess that should have just been taken out because I shouldn’t be shocked. It’s the same shit that always happens. It’s like this huge billboard on the side of the road right ( Read more... ) -
[one twenty] Lj Idol Week 6- Sunrise.
Stress? No stress, just frustration. Every little detail being handled in such an unconventional way. Remorse for such small choices snowballing into big problems ( Read more... ) -
[one hundred two] LJ Idol Week 1- Empty Gestures
For the longest time I didn’t believe in love. It was this broken concept- people “fall in love” and then in the end just…give up? I told myself I would never give up when I found that true love, if it even existed. I’d give and I’d give, but I’d never let go. I’d give it my all.
Unfortunately, life doesn’t always go the way things plan. My parent ( Read more... )