I feel like I am finally on the way to figuring it out. Life is not a roller coaster, it is an obstacle course. It is not a series of things you go through to get to the end, it is a series of things you choose to get past and get over, or you stay right where you are. Trying to get there is so much more important than looking at all the things in ( Read more... )

I feel like I have written novels today, everywhere but here of course, and about everything but what is really on my mind... well sort of. I know something is wrong because I have started to get quiet again, I only do that when something is wrong. It has been tough for me emotion wise lately. In the past I would have broken down, lashed out, shut ( Read more... )

There are so many things trying to get out at once, none of them can. You need to know when to let go, even if its not your choice, even if you don't like it, nothing lasts forever, the bad or the good. Things change, it is the only constant in this life. My entire life is changing right now, and I'm not sure if its for the better, but it is going ( Read more... )

there could not have been a lovelier sight, but there was none to see it, except a strange boy who was staring in at the window. Peter pan had countless joys that other children can never know but he was looking at the one joy from which he must be forever barred. to live, would be an awfully big adventure ( Read more... )

Sometimes I see something happen in life and I know just what song should be playing. I spend the better part of my day planning out soundtracks, to my life, to the lives of others, to events I see happen, to movies I have made up in my head. In the time most people spend thinking about the day ahead, or the day gone by, I spend my time thinking ( Read more... )

Sometimes the internet really astounds me, the immeasurable amount of things a person can gain from such a network. The access to people and information that otherwise may have never come into contact with each other. Today was a really good day, I went to the farmers market with Cory and we had a blast, a few good friends showed up to support me ( ( Read more... )

It is strange for me to see an aspect of a friends personality that I really don't like. I'm not talking about those annoying quirks that you put up with because you love them. I'm talking about seeing someone behaving in a way that changes how you view their character. At a persons core, they hold beliefs that affect the way they behave in daily ( Read more... )

I can identify. I am liking this cd more and more as I listen to it, I didnt realize until I heard this song that the CD is set up like a movie, a zombie movie more specifically, and each song is a scene in the movie. This song is meant to be the credits... and also something else, see if you can catch on, it took me a little while to figure it out ( Read more... )

I'm working on it. I did more today than I have in a really long time. Reaching out, stepping up to the plate, being responsible, holding myself accountable, not really something I've had a lot of practice in. I did today though. I consider it a big step.

so i have been looking through all of my old live journal posts... this journal goes back six years. crazy. and one of the first entries i had was a personality test, so i took the same one again just now. it is interesting to see how things have changed. also hilarious to see me talk about the old gateway computer lol.

Advanced Big 30 ( Read more... )