Things are really not good here. Moms best friend has cancer, she didnt leave her room today, not once. I dont really know what to do to help her, I'm scared too. Kathy has been there my whole life, her daughter katie is my oldest friend. We played together as babies, Kathy is the same as a mom to me. After all this stuff with *the most horrible ( Read more... )

i think that you never really get over something, not to say you dont get past it, but i think the things that hurt you deeply dont just go away one day. rather i think that its like strength training for your heart. each day you bear the pain and your heart becomes just a little bit stronger day by day until the weight of it doesnt feel so heavy

today has been a weird day. and i am in a bad. fucking. mood. i am trying really hard not to take it out on anyone, im hoping its just pms or something but i want to hit everyone who talks to me today. *RAGE*

its tough watching a train wreck and knowing you both cant and shouldnt do anything about it. i am doing my best though to change the way i deal with people and situations, this is not my problem, and i will not make it my problem. although they are my friends i can not support what they are doing or get involved, so i must as respectfully as i can ( Read more... )

when did reality get so.... forceful? i guess i expected that this day would come, i just figured i would be the one who got to decide when that was. but i guess life doesnt wait for you to make up your mind, it just keeps going on without you. I dont think im ready for this, but im not sure i ever would have been. its the elephant in the room, ( Read more... )

What do you do when you know one of your friends is making a huge mistake? do you say something? do you keep your mouth shut? its a fine line to walk. there comes a point though where you realize that she is going into this with her eyes open. that denial is a choice not a circumstance, and you say FUCK IT. you are being so retarded, and you know ( Read more... )

Who knew finding a job would be so hard? im honestly a little afraid these days. im hoping this restaurant thing works out, because as much as i love my friends i cant depend on them for jobs. i know jessica wants to help and that job opportunity is a good one, but she has her own things going on and i cant expect her to solve my problems. i wish ( Read more... )

do you ever feel like youve lost a game you didnt even know you were playing?

i guess im just having a sad day, i miss her more around my birthday. somehow getting older just doesnt feel right without her. i wonder if this feeling will ever go away.

ok, so i know in like a matter of weeks its my birthday, but im just not feeling it this year, i dont feel like making a big deal about it. i know part of it is knowing my friends cant get along with eachother for like a day, and things feel so tense right now, and part of it is feeling pretty stuck in the middle. but if im honest, most of it has ( Read more... )

all we are is all we are ( Read more... )