i dont know what i would ever do if i lost my mom. i know its going to happen one day... i just dont know how that will ever be something i could live with. and so i dont know what to say to you, when you call me and tell me you are losing yours. i tell you people, you better thank someone every god damned day you get through with out death or ( Read more... )

ever wonderd what your life would be like if you had made a left instead of a right? sometimes i wonder if some small choice i made on some tuesday in july of 99 affected my entire life. i wish my life was a movie, so i could go back and find out what my other life would be like. maybe i have super long hair, and my own car, and i weigh 110 pounds ( Read more... )

hes back. as always, i should have known he would be, he always knows the perfect time to come back, right before i really get a chance to enjoy being happy... for once i just wish karma was on my side. ive tried so hard not to let him get to me anymore, to push him so far out of my life he wouldnt ever get back, but nomatter what i do hes there, ( Read more... )

rest in peace.
both of you.

since i hated the way i was feeling... and the way my life was feeling. i decided to change things. just little things, but hey you never know how what you do affects the world. yesterday, i put my socks on before my pants. today, i brushed my teeth in the shower. tomorrow, im washing my face before i get in the shower.

i think im slowly shutting down. closing myself off from the world, im becoming bitter and resentful and straying so far away from who i was and who i want to be. i dont know where the change occured but somewhere along the way i lost it. i lost the happy go lucky, dont let it get to you, dont keep it all inside factor. lately every day is bad and ( Read more... )

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so last night i went to the beach at two am with my sister jessica and a boy named simon. it was so much fun. what started out as picking me up from work and getting coffee ended up being a four hour trip with some of my favorite people. but alas, being me and being at the ocean i had to listen to polen and salt. because no one will take me to mrs ( Read more... )

you led me to ( Read more... )

dc sleeps alone tonight