whats wrong kira ( Read more... )

there are some people in your life, you find youll never meet thier equal. molly... eddie.... they are the shit. i couldnt get better friends if i made them myself. those two will be my friends for life. i cant explain it but, im sure the three of us will always be in eachothers lives somehow. its just something i know.

what with two funerals... nearly three, and two people in my life attempting suicide.... im pretty much REALLY fucking over august. AND last night... some ASSSHOLE attacked my brother and his friends at dennys, he spent the entire night in an emergency room while his friend got 27 stiches in his head. thanks for the fucking hate crime you stupid ( Read more... )

sometimes im terrified that im really a horrible person inside. what if when i find out who i really am... i turn out to be all the terrible things they say about me when im not around? sometimes im terrified that im really a horrible person inside ( Read more... )

sometimes it freaks me out when i post shit on myspace and EVERYONE i have ever known reads it. sometimes i like posting here because i know the only people reading this are molly, maybe janine, maybe eddie, maybe sydney. just a few people... not the whole damn world on myspace. this one feels like a journal, that one feels like posting my shit on ( Read more... )

why do i have to deal with this right now? why do i have to deal with this at all? how do i decide whats more important? do i forgive him just because he is dying? because thats what it would be for, i dont like him as a person, my dad or not he is a terrible person, he may have been good to me when i was small, but the things he has done since, to ( Read more... )

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time ( Read more... )

Now its years since your body went flat and even memories of that ( Read more... )

people are full of shit ( Read more... )

the cycle has started all over again.... i waited all of january for the horrible announcements to come... but january was over, and no one died, no one was sick, no one had a horrible accident, and i felt so relieved, little did i know, january was just late ( Read more... )