venting pt. 2

i should try and stop crying now.
i don't even remember crying this much, EVER..
my dumbass took for time the granted he
spent here; i.e fighting about stupid shit.
my heart hurts, really bad. maybe because
its in guam with him. what the fuck dude?

fuck fuck fuck fuck.

i've never been so damn emotional
in my fckin life. is it because ( Read more... )

venting part 1


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peace out livejournal, hello blogspot.

peep it: the-miseducation.blogspot.com

livejournal didn't cut it.. ha.

I love you, Lester Pagaduan.

You're still the main key to my piece of mind. And no
matter what we go through from here on out, I know
will definitely be different from before. I know at times
"us" is a hard thing to deal with even if it has been
over 1 year, but I'm still inlove with you. I still want you. I still 
want to be your everything. You always ( Read more... )

positivity is a hard thing to maintain, but I've got to keep believing.

1. I NEED TO STOP SPENDING MONEY.
- it's becoming a really bad habit. i don't like it
and i don't even need half the shit i buy.
2. I miss my love.
3. Lately, I've been better my best. Pushing myself to work harder than usual. 
4. Sometimes people talk their ish, and sound so stupid ( Read more... )

no cupcakin'.
just straight, hard, real facts. i think you
deserve to be treated better, and you know
that. ha. you deserve to be treated way
better babygirl. you've encountered this 
stop sign one too many times, have you not?
don't think about it, be about.

how do you feel ultimately?
lost? lonely? or fed up? if you're so scared
to be alone, don't stoop ( Read more... )

Damn, here we go again. Why? Why the fuck am I buggin' over this shit? Why are we sweatin' our love, seriously? This isn't healthy for the both of us. Why you ask? Because were thousands of miles away from
eachother. But I suppose this is just another test for us, and by the looks of it, it seems as if were failing, were rolling down hill. Were ( Read more... )

love, love, love : Words can't express how wonderful it feels to hear your voice again. I know that it's been a little rocky these past few days, but just like all the other obstacles we've overcome, this will just be another thing we can get over, TOGETHER. You know how much I love you, and I know you love me as well. I guess the biggest challenge ( Read more... )

A lot

2nd blog for the day. I have a lot of time on my hands today, so I'm chillin, FINALLY.

Today: Chilled with my girl Jae at the pad, went to Kona Cakes and Hans & Harry with Vivian to help pick out a cake for her Semi-Debut. I didn't go to school because I was too tired from last nights emotion. No more ditching though, promise! I talked to my ( Read more... )

WOW. Last night was amazing. My prayers for a deep religious conversation were answered. ALOT of the questions I had in my head had been answered and I seriously felt like I was coming back to God. I've lost touch with him and sadly, kind of forgot about my relationship with him.. But I'm feeling terrible about it and I'm coming back to the heart ( Read more... )