so very confused. I never thought it'd be this hard. I never thought it'd be such a mess. Why does no one every warn you about these things?

I have issues. like serious issues. issues that make it very difficult for me to connect with other people. I'm a very guarded person, and I have my reasons, the having never really having gotten over being stabbed in the back so many times in my life i don't care to count, and such things. These issues wouldn't be a problem if say I intended to be ( Read more... )

How things are almost never how you expect them to be. I mean I guess I had this fairy tale like picture in my head, but it's not quite the reality. seeing as it is still life, it just so happens that crappy days still happen, but it's nice to have someone near, who cares, and that you care about so very much. To have someone to hold you and make ( Read more... )

The boyfriend and I have been living together for like a few weeks now, although he's been gone for five days! This whole military girlfriend thing is much more difficult then one may imagine. You can"t complain too much because you knew the deal going in to it, but still. I did know, and I have to deal with it. And for some reason my L is sticking ( Read more... )

Try as I might, there shall be no seep for me. Too much on the brain. So I've moved, and it has been great so far. I know by now nothing is picture perfect. I don't know where I'm going with this....

more like I'm moving on monday. got a place. just have to pack....everything.

We're moving in together. It's kinda crazy. I'm not sure I've ever been quite so happy about anything in my life. We only have about six months before he deploys so we plan to make the best of it. I got a job in la jolla, and now were just looking for a place. I think we found one in escondido, it's a one bedroom cottage, doesn't look like much but ( Read more... )

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something very unexpeced has happened. I have a new boyfriend, but he's an old one turned new again. That's right folks, the day I thought would surely bring the end of days turned out to be a great day, Seth and I are back together after a very long time. I couldn't be happier right now.

have I been so at peace with the world. I am in love and loving every second of it. Everything is now as it should be, or should have been. I'm moving at the end of may, and he'll be coming home to me every night. I can't wait. when I think of him there is an overwhelming feeling of happiness that comes over me, and I can't help but smile. I'm ( Read more... )