or at least i hope it is. I am still stuck. I'm stuck here and all I want is to go home. It's a hard thing to do... living with the person who broke you, when all you want is them. I love him now, just as much as I ever did. I hate that it hurts to be mad at him. I hate defending his reasons. I hate that when I was ready to give him my all, he ( Read more... )

I'll tell you all a story. It goes something like this. There is a girl and a guy, and they were doing what boys and girls do in bed. well they were a bit hasty and the girl still had her sweater on, and her cellphone was in her pocket. as things got heated, the cellphones buttons were pushed, and a call was made to the first name in the contacts ( Read more... )

I have no idea what the fuck is going on, or how I got here. I was happy. the adjustment was so hard to make and when it was finally done, it was over, but things were just beginning. I'm pissed off. I'm pissed off that there was no in between. no substance. Now there is a guy. a good guy begging me to go out with him. he's a cook, CIA grad, plays ( Read more... )

i am really at a loss. I don't know which way is up now a days. I just wanna know where the fuck I'm going. What am I doing? How do I move on? Do I move on? If I don't will it be worth it. If I don't will I just be setting myself up for a whole world of hurt later on?

I really do. I'm done for a while. No more relationships that just all end the same way. They lose interest or just can't commit for some reason. I see no reason why I should subject myself to something when I just feel like a failure when it all comes crashing down. I work too god damn hard for them to get just about nothing in return. I don't ( Read more... )

We almost had it all. we really did. We gave it our all but some mountains we never meant to be climbed.

but sadly it's not.

Leticia is going to be seven in a month. I want to know where the hell the time went! She was born when I was 13. I feel so damn old. And I was asking my sister what her party theme was going to be this year... High School Musical. I have to make her cake, like I always do. What the hell am I gonna do with that? I like the kid, but for serious, why ( Read more... )

Ludo - Love Me Dead! lyricsLove me cancerously ( Read more... )

I have been having a great time down here. I couldn't have been more pleased with my surroundings. But it's time to come home. Seth and I are doing well as can be expected. Life in the military makes things so much more complicated. I just miss home.