i woke up today cranky. i've been cranky almost all day...everyone at heartwood is cranky. its hard to get out of the vibe when the whole community seems to be in the same place.

erg, you know its over when you're having fantasies about throwing yoga props at people in your yoga class. *sigh* so much for relaxation.

soooo...i will admit it...i used to walk into target LOOKING for things to buy, its insane when i think about all the useless crap i would spend money on. today i left the mountain to do some shopping for the store. target was my first stop after a stop at a whole-in-the-wall crystal shop off the side of the 101. after about 10 minutes in target my ( Read more... )

s and j and the other line...laughing and telling me they love me and that they're fighting over who gets to love me. more laughter and a pretend fight...s wins and is now my wife for the next week. i'm laughing uncontrolably over the phone while we plan our going steady and our tuesday to tuesday marriage. its nice to have such amazing people in ( Read more... )

i arrived back at heartwood last night from a weekend in berkeley/san francisco. it was good to be back, but its feeling less and less like home. heartwood still doesn't feel like home, so i'm trapped inbetween the two...netiher one is home, but both are familiar ( Read more... )

things on the mountain are quiet. there's a fair in town and lots of people headed down to check it out. working this weekend so i'm up here with the trees and the few folks still around. it feels good to be here in the quiet ( Read more... )

so i abruptly decided to head out to Seattle on thursday night. i needed to get off the mountain, to clear all the swirling thoughts and insecurities in my head. 12 hours driving and i was enveloped in a warm hug from erin. i needed the familiarity of someone who knew me so well that all we needed to do was sit on a couch and stare at each other ( Read more... )

so i'm not the best at keeping a journal. i never have, i may never be. its interesting though, when i actually go back and read what i've written i learn so much. maybe its that fear of greater self realization that keeps me from recording my thoughts. or maybe i'm just lazy ( Read more... )

There's an itch between my shoulder blades. Sometimes I feel like I had wings in another life and when I'm preparing to go on a journey my body gets ready to start flying. 4 days till I experience the playa for the first time. I'm ready to take flight.

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