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putting it out there, so it can come to me
what i want:
a drama-free, happy, satisfying relationship
kids
dogs
a house
to achieve my career goals
to have no money worries
to keep running!
to have my besties in the same city
to have money and time to paint again -
most of the time
most of the time i don't mind not being everyone's favorite person. i don't mind being alone; a lot of the time i prefer it. i don't love everyone i meet and therefore i don't expect everyone to love me. but! there are times when i just wish i was more of a liker. likee? both. i am lonely. sometimes i get lonely ( Read more... ) -
found something today
i was packing today, going through half-unpacked boxes and organizing the contents. i've heard it's good to start with a closet, so that's what i was doing. this particular closet is full of empty suitcases, boxes of CDs and a plethora of tapes. thumbing through my CD notebook-thang, i was surprised to find a note from CT. it said, 'i adore ( Read more... ) -
what a day
it has been a helluva day ( Read more... ) -
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do ya ever have those times, when something horrible--not just bad or annoying but horrible--has happened ( Read more... ) -
the ballad of big nothing
i am reminded today that whenever i REALLY want something truly good i find ways to talk myself out of it ( Read more... ) -
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been posting a lot privately lately...i've had a lot on my mind and most of it too much to put out there.
but i'm here.
i'm reading.
rilly. -
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all day today i've been in a mood. a dark, misanthropic but lonely mood. yanno, it happens sometimes ( Read more... ) -
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i gotta say that 2008 was no picnic.
i ended up despising someone i thought i loved.
i lost my boy and my baby pup.
i worked way too hard and too much.
ok, it really fucking sucked, to be honest.
now i'm ready to go after every single thing i want in 2009.
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i get sick too much.
i am sick of being sick.
blah.