We know how this will end with apologies and ink on the page. Thanks Lj for letting me emo, I assume no one reads this anymore

I just need her out of my head. again, a few days go by and I'm doing ok, but those fucking dreams have a way of creeping up and fucking you over. I don't know why I thought it would ever work, I was an idiot, and I wish it could just all go back

I'm so sorry

I've always wondered if I'm not normal because of how I handle things. Its rare I actually get sad for a long period of time. If I get sad, its usually short lived and followed soon by anger. I always say that it makes me happier, all it does though is give me energy which is not the same thing. its happening again, I'm no longer sad about it, now ( Read more... )

I want to be there to comfort her. Should I? I don't know. Through out it I never stopped caring about her, and now I feel like I'm causing everything that I want to comfort her about. I feel like I need to get away, not for good, just to take a trip and clear my head. I just still can't shake this feeling that I was second though.

Sometimes you just need to write, I find something comforting in the sounds of the keyboard being tapped gently by fingertips and just typing and not rereading what you wrote. It's been a long time since I wrote and it feels good to do it again, I've been the past week reading and rereading this journal, page after page after page. Alot of things ( Read more... )

go get sexed up by a toothless dumb

10 things I would never say to someone now, but every day I'm crossing shit off my list ( Read more... )

Women are devils. Make you stay awake and talk to them becuase they're not tired, then when you're talking about something good, having a good heated discussion they get pissed sign off in a huff, and will probably stay pissed for a good while. I have to stop having semi-political/full blown political discussions with people
fat ass

recently I was made to realise that people are actually selfish in this world. they care about their own safety and security more than their friends. This thought was foreign to me. How can someone care more about themselves? I don't understand, my worst moments is seeing someone in pain that I can't help. I would do anything to take that pain from ( Read more... )