I want to cry ( Read more... )

"The way he holds on to the memory of his mom...his strength..how he shows ( Read more... )

I have not written something here for a while well at least nothing of worth.Frankly there has been nothing to report only really thing is the fact that now it seems that I can barely handle karen by myself anymore.I don't mean fighting her I mean tolerating her the way my dad puts it "our at the end of your rope" .Whats the weirdest is that when ( Read more... )

I begged for a relationship for months and then I finally got one.Now I stand here looking for a way out of course I could just let the clock run out since I leave in august.Which was the plan I always had but what bothers me is I think she falling more and more in love with me and I kind of just staying at the same level which I love her I'm just ( Read more... )

Something been bothering me but to explain it I have to start with why it came up and why it seems so important now. I been watching my Favorite show Supernatural season finale a lot(20times by my count).I can't probably explain the show but I think this does " Through it all the foundation has never changed, demons come and go, angels come and go ( Read more... )

Here I sit after filling out Karen's Mothers Day card (20 bucks an Happy Mothers Day inside the card)and the only thing I want to do is rip it to pieces or write the truth on the card and watch her face as she reads it.Of course I won't no I'll play the game for the sake of my sanity but that not what brings me here or the fact I have to give karen ( Read more... )

I struggle with what to write on this journal cause frankly I know only one person reads this journal.So I usually censor my self or just make the damn journal private.Even after telling me to kill myself and a thousand other insults or lies about me I still can't ever really bring myself to tell her the truth(at least without making it nicer in ( Read more... )

Its sad to think how many times I have wanted that(the title) and even sadder to think that if I had the option now to that I might still take it. 5 months to Kansas and I have managed to get somewhat girlfriend,better friends and oh yeah me an my dad being closer than never.I'm not making it any easier to leave.God I'm I bitching at the fact that ( Read more... )

A Man makes a deal with Death in exchange for what the man wants Death wants the man to pay these tolls until The man has pay his debit ( Read more... )

This is the second time I have tried to this journal and I can never seem to find the words for what I'm feeling.Hell even a subject to this would be nice but no every time I try to put words to these feelings it changes to something else.Like its not just one thing bothering me its everything.In fact the only thing that gives me peace is the ( Read more... )