paul is thinking about turning down the internship at bell labs this summer! i know it would be a great opportunity for him, but it was gonna suck in a lot of ways. now he won't be gone all of july and into august. we can leave earlier to get settled in to atlanta before his job starts. and we can extend our road trip there and go to montana! soooo

i haven't updated in a bit so i figured i would, but i can't really think of anything new to share ( Read more... )

i would never act on this but....

sometimes i wonder if i have schizoaffective disorder at all or if it was just a hormone imbalance of some sort that i have treated by changing birth controls. and i think that perhaps i don't need my meds and life would be better without them.

it's not worth the risk, but sometimes i wonder.

You Color Your Life With Vibrant Warmth
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i'm so excited about atlanta that i can't sleep. i'm wondering if i should be resorting to drugging myself to sleep just so i get enough sleep, or if i should just take naps when i can. there just too many thoughts in my head to sleep. all the little details i can't stop thinking about, and big details too i guess. i am moving! not just around so ( Read more... )

ATLANTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

atlanta wrote today to say their application process was slowed due to spring break, so they have not made any offers yet. they hope to make offers by the 20th. so next week....*crosses fingers* not that staying in sd really that bad ( Read more... )

wouldn't you think that if your father was an alcoholic and that ruined your parents' marriage and was some cause in his early death, that you would do whatever it takes not to become an alcoholic yourself? i don't understand the multi-generationalism of alcoholism. why are people not learning from their parents' mistakes? how, after going through ( Read more... )

why is it god's plan that i never get what i think i want ( Read more... )

wyoming is a no. so far everything is no. only possibilities left are atlanta and denver.

i really want to move.