In discoerved last night that i should have a drink before i taking sleeping pills they taste foul!

Troy text today, asking how i was, i dont know what he wants from me or expects, I cant give him any answers
bah

But kicking sparkle searching sarah is back

wooot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!mwah and just im smiling because i can, so i have a few practical issues like no money...running out of food.....an essay to do or two....but i dont care
I know i can handle this
I know Im going to get better
I just need a bit of a push and shove once in a while
:-)

I could spend all my time questioning why it happened, why im like this, why life is hell, but i've done that for so long.I still get ahuanted by the faces of some, I still feel dirty, everytime i remember, everytime I think of it ( Read more... )

Hospital ( Read more... )

I'm so tired, and phyically and mentally, im meeting snozz later to talk, i have no idea what to say it just doesnt seem right that he doesnt know whats ging on, he just has to see his little sister, exuasted, upset, and barely eating, stupidly thin,and he desnt know whty ( Read more... )

i need for someone to help me get out of this now, while it seems like even a possibility

fuck fuck fuck life

i just dont care, i just dont know anymore

Warwick was great, and im going to shortly put some pics up on facebook but i still feel completely out of control ( Read more... )

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 BUT...i suspect i will end up back self destructing ( Read more... )